One Day!
One more day....finally this moment's coming... I was mugging at Macs today and saw Kianger with the other school boys that attended the anglican church in school... hmmm very lively batch... makes me wonder how weird people can be.
Tomorrow gonna study from 8am - 10pm... of course with breaks and slacking time and lunch and all that... just going to put myself hard. Hopefully I get good grades...
wish me the best!
7 Days: ....
Auntie Lily came back yesterday, and she looked better... she had make up sia... I mean, I always thought the older generations don't put make up that much... she's like 60 over. So everyone met up, including all the cousins... haiz, must admit, the Chia family females are all very demure and pretty. (Not the guys la...heh) Like Carol, wahhh, become some big pretty girl already... 20+ and she's getting chioer and chioer.
Well, what to expect, perfect genes >:] heheh.
Anyway, then we all played Bluff, where Mazzy was making lame jokes and laughing loudly at herself...she's 20+ leh, freelancer director and still acts like a big baby... haiz.. She's so skinny and was telling everyone she's on a diet... hmmm what you call those people again? There's a condition for that... Anerexia or something.
So when the bigger kids went down, I told yihui and amelia about the dirrty stuff we tell our sec 1 juniors, and how they thought holding hands meant getting pregnant... LOL, ok that's probably mean... and sorry I told you guys, very very male topic. And I told her how some of us made fun of commercials for sanitary pads... it's just weird...hehh.. Anyway, I think they know more about sex than I do.... don't think girls are that innocent... think they talk dirty much more. Welp, they kept laughing and laughing.... so it doesn't seem to bother them... chee *girls these days...*
Ermmm.....chinese? getting to it, getting to it...
8 Days To 'O's: Worrying
Well, 8 more days, I'm going to finish my jiang yis by today!!! Heh, that's because I lost a few other jiang yis so I'm actually completing less than usual... but no worries, I'll find the rest of the papers by tomorrow.. if I can't, then I won't bother looking, I'll memorise them a few days later.
Well, I think everyone wishes their life is more interesting. But we're just normal beings, not characters in a drama... sometimes everything doesn't happen, and when things do start happening, they come so fast we wished they'd stop. So what if life isn't really exciting? We know how cool it is just being ordinary, cause living ordinarily successfully is already much of an exciting and challenging part.
Let's just say I'm very very worried about my Mum, and I just realise how important my bro was to me, he's the jolly ass freak that makes life quirky and manipulative >:], love him loads.
Oh yeah, and something weird happened to me... was sorting out my thoughts in bed a few nights ago, and suddenly, out of nowhere, the words "Luke 23, 24" appeared in my mind. So I went to check what that verse was, and found out it was actually the Crucification and Resurrection of Christ. Well, I wonder what God wanted me to know, and I guess He wanted to remind me how He died for me to take away all my sins, and I should stop worrying that whether He will accept me or not and trust him if I really loved Him. Anyway, I won't forget this experience, at least I know He's around. Seriously, I didn't know Luke 23 was that important verse.... but well... chee, I'm crapping.
Luke 23 (King James Version)
Tomorrow I'm going to do my Chinese compo. Thank God it's a holiday tomorrow... hehh.. so I can concentrate on Chinese more! Waha, I think I'm going nuts about Chinese... later.
"I Feel So" - Box Car Racer
(I guess I could relate to this song now, the stress and all that... and wanting to be better but feeling that I can't. Box Car Racer rocks!! I think their better than Blink 182...anyway, whatever I'm feeling now is exactly in the lyrics beeelowww. I bet everyone can relate to the words...just not trying hard enough, but there's always starting over. ;] toodles.)
Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over
Bean Around
Yes yes, before anyone appalls at this skin, I've changed the blogskin back. Because I've realised how my posts are shrunk into a small box, and that I had to spend time scrolling down and down and down.... to find another post. Hmmm... actually this is just an excuse to find another skin in the near future.
OK. What's up? hmm let me see... AH! of course - chinese.
I'm actually quite glad I've finished a small part of memorising of words... there's still definitions, close passage & comprehension practice blah blah blah... but all that can wait for tomorrow. It's so damn fast, a week more to chinese 'O's (CAN YOU IMAGINE!!??!). I know I will just flunk it badly.. I can taste that C5....heh
But being the cheap and stubborn self I am, I'm going to aim for a good B3 at least. The results matter. If I don't buck up now, then I would have to retake chinese 'O's and have no time for Art, then I would flunk art won't I? And that's a worse-case scenario...that's my A1 at stake. Wahhhh stressssssss...
Haha, but I was pretty lazy today, watched finish all the Mr Bean 'Animated Series' on 9 VCDs. It was my bro's friend's stuff, and I just continued watching cause Mr Bean is damn bloody interesting - not hilarious - just comical seeing him in everyday stuff (in cartoon). Hardcore watching till I forgot the time.. heh, same ol' lazy me.
In order: Teddy, Mr Bean, His Unknown Girlfriend, Mrs Wickett his Landlady, Her Cat
They should make more of this!!!
I'm gonna watch star wars soon.... kekeke prolly in a week's time with myself... hope its good, actually I'm watching for the sake of those blue animated alien beings...i think their in the show, thought I saw them in the trailers.... hmmmm...
Romancing....?
I suck at writing romance.
Ok, so I've been witiing a hell lot of fantasy works and I wanted to try something new, so the first thing was *romance*. it's definitely easier said than done. Have all these weird sentences and loopholes all over my undergoing piece, so I've given up. Nothing inspiring to write about love, you just plainly fall in love... no crap and wishy washies.
I should really be bawling about my 31 points(!!!!!) for my mid year more. But I know I've not put in any effort, so it was really what I deserved. I'm dumb, seriously... studying my ass off on exam-eve is a very dumb thing to do. Please, don't follow my example. Anyway I don't need consolation prizes... specially from Ernest Sia (who kept saying 19 points were low), so its cool, just shows I need to put in more work for prelims (!!!). Best thing to do is cheer up and move on, and work much harder for the next EXAM. But, argh.... 31 points is still quite a wet blanket... BUT (yes, the big butt..) there's always a glimmer of hope somewhere, somehow... *plays themesong from Days Of Our Lives*.
Chinese, chinese and MORE chinese. It's all I can think about now. I will get at least a B3 for chinese, absolutely MUST! So I did my chinese compo at the swimming pool with Shan Hui. But then hardly got anything done cause we were talking, and I was stalling time due to laziness. Very unsuccessful attempt today to do work. Kallang Swiming Complex didn't had water supply today (as in the pools are full, but no clean bathing water)... it's stupid... swimming complex with no water supply, I think the government gave up on Kallang cause its usually dead.
Miss Chua APPROVES of my idea of my great-grandma!! She was like trying to convince me to do the red balloon I did for this mid year, and I showed her my intended idea, and it wasn't bad too. Moses told me his O level work was 8 x 8, which I think he measure by feet. And it will be a pretty good size for my work too. Well, at least that's done.. can peacefully start doing my art and start waiting for HER wedding...and she doesn't know I have her house address.. heheh. >:D *sinister laugh*
Malcolm Ong (stupid top boy of our school) had 42/50 for geog!! and I had 49/100 for geog and SS... ARGH! Smart people! Asses! May you all burn in corporate hell...he's funky, but he's too clever....wahah.. come battle it out with the art boys for art la... you smart punk.
Welp, this is the 31-pointer signing off!
WOooooo
EXAMS!
Yes, the only time anyone gets real bugged with mugging. I did my share, and I can safely say I'm failing chemiistry... and it isn't even pure! Dammit, gotta buck up for physics. I find exams quite preferable actually, gives that adrenaline rush.. it's pretty good sometimes to flush up in anxiety, at least it shows your emotions are still in contact.
Isn't it dumb they put chemistry paper 2 before paper 1? I mean.... bah whatever, their just plain hollowskulls. So apparently paper 1 (MCQ) is next week. Three cheers for good school management everyone.
*Wine glasses clinking afar*
Back to the current situation. I really am sick of being attacked mentally. I don't wanna be something everyone uses to feel some excitement. There's been so many things happening, and suddenly everyone is accusing me for some reason or another, and I defend about it, and I get said that i'm giving excuses. I don't blame anyone, maybe I've been a screw-up these days. Exams, the funeral, the stress, everything builds up. I've probably been evading everything else since then.
Actually, I don't really care now. If you think I'm such an asshole then be it. What can I do to change anyone's point of view? I'm just saying I really had enough of getting named. Like to Dedric, it wasn't even funny today.
Tired of this games. Just say whatever you wanna say to me. Saying bad things infront of a person is better than backstabbing him. I've enough defending myself, have it your way. Just get me assed.
Hmmm well, I failed e math today! Woohoo! Big surprise.... everyone says it's easy... wtf? Damn diff la. Dammit, smart buggers everyone of em. geography is a sure fail anyway, next on the sure fail list? Chinese. I got F9 for the previous test!! Haha, aiming for A1... hehe.. such a naive ass.
Realised that cute girl at tuition is rather bitchy, manipulated the tutor the whole day, and kept doing sick orgasmis 'oh yeahs,' wonder what's on her mind. She hears metal, but she looks so damn decent, she reads vintage comics... she's a punk. Cool... but I guess I gotta give her up cause she seemed to be so diff. Haiz..