Over And Out.
Interestingly, I'm still surviving from today's events.
We did the performance today. Yeap, so there was Jesse McCartney's Beautiful Soul up first. The teachers wanted it cause they thought it'd be good entertainment for the other teachers. Seriously, from where the teachers were sitting - in the upper court, surrounded by pillars and walls - I don't think you can hear much. Plus the microphone was damn screwed! Haha, so I realise that it's ok, God just likes to make every situation to be.
I bet everyone was noticing my screwed hairstyle. Ah, another situation God placed.
So we did Relient K's Be My Escape! And wohoh, the song rocked cause after that 10 people straight asked me for the mp3. I know, I know, I'm Relient K's representative in our school...wahahaha.. but Be My Escape is a seriously a more-than-average song. It's even over Relient K's normal standard.
I guess the song went pretty well. Ryan did well too, haha.. I always told him he could sing la, but he's eternally acting-humble... finally he gave today a shot. I thought Finch wasn't a good band to try, they could've done Terminal, or Fall Out Boy, those bands are better and he would sound more professional. And the sec 5s are just nuts la... they have the balls for anything. It's funny how some people would crave for so much attention they shove everyone else aside, like what the sec 5s do... they just screwed the other bands during the auditions.
Humans all have different extremities. Their's is music + attention. Interesting combination. Usually bands don't really want to perform, like Relient K, they didn't start out begging to go into big gigs.. they got dragged in somehow. Usually you perform in cafes and then you get invitations for shows.
Tomorrow's THE Day. We're celebrating three birthdays in one. Hmm...I think I'm going out too much, to the extent that I'm not studying. Fine, I shall bring my notes out this time when I go out. Before Mr Conscious bugs me again.
Fostering Social... what?
Psalm 2: 7-9 The Message Bible version
Let me tell you what GOD said next.
He said, "You're my son, and today is your birthday. What do you want? Name it: Nations as a present? continents as a prize? You can command them all to dance for you, or throw them out with tomorrow's trash."
I'm a darn hypocrite.
I'm quite hooked on dota now. I remember I did scrutinise the game back then...Well, there's always points of hypocrisy in your life, where you don't exactly practice what you preach, for me this is the case. I read somewhere this pastor couldn't control himself and almost raped 4 girls.. if you're a traditionalist, or another pastor, or a parent... I bet you'll go.. "WHAT?! That's absurd!". But we're all just human aren't we. There will always be times we'll make mistakes. That pastor just lost it there and then, and the society gives him the 'death sentence'?
When you hear other catholics saying that the Pope is the equivalent to Jesus, it's not true.
Pope = Human Being = Sinner
Well, its as simple as that.
Heheh... anyway I get owned like hell lots of times, so I know why people wanna play with me - to feel good winning a noob. Lol
Seth's organising this performance for Teacher's Day. He was psyched about it, you could see it, the smses, the email, etc. I've gotta take a hat off him. I seriously don't even feel like performing again.. and Seth's the guy who always pushes until he gets most of it his way.. in the good sense la. Since it is all our last year and he wants to do something for the teachers for the very last time, I'm okay. Besides, we're playing Relient K! Can imagine how much incentive that gave me.
I got a new keyboard. What I mean is, I've swapped keyboards with my bro, and this is what's written below the Delete, End and Page Down buttons:
WARNING: Some experts believe that the use of any keyboard may cause serious injury.
LOL
I think we humans have too much time with our lives. I wonder who uses the advice of experts who sit there and come up with theories like that. I was on MSN Messenger just now, and there was an advertisment around the bottom saying: Love Garanteed. MSN Romance Search or soomething like that. Can you imagine who msn pays to come up with such lines? It's as good as justifying MSN on a policy for 100% successful match-ups. Let's not even try to think of what peeps would do to MSN once these couples break up.
Maybe sometimes the market tries too hard to sell their stuff to us. The word 'garantee' has close terms with the word 'promise'. Once these policies don't work out, you still have to pay for what you presumed was 'garanteed' minus the 'promise'. Companies these days - even Bill Gates owned - are just advertising you their connivity.
Isn't it!?!
Soul Booster
It's 2 Days away from the start of Prelims, and here I am blogging.
I just came to say that sometimes, God really leaves us. He just abandons us. Like what I'm feeling now, and here I am, feeling lost... asking myself maybe I've done too many sins, or loved too many vices that made God so displeased he decided, "Chia Shan Yu, you can just go help yourself, I am washing my hands off you,"
But then again, I know he wouldn't do that.
I guess he wants to make his point the importance of worshipping him. I was at COOS the other day, and Pastor Jennifer said something that I guess never really occured to me,
"What is true worship? True worship is worship minus away the music, the words, remove the instruments, take away the blessings and the gifts we were given, and that it would still be there,"
Then I wondered, would I be able to love God with all my heart without the songs? Or the words and everything else. I guess maybe not. Perhaps the dignity for life is the embark of a goal that you really desire, or aim towards. And I guess so many of us have neglected God and yet calling ourselves Christians in the process, that we aren't exactly fit to be worshippers of him.
But I think as long as you trust in him, there would be no problem or barrier to big for your capability. For he would never give you something you cannot handle yourself.
Sovereignty
Matthew 6:25 - 27
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life
Hmm... a weird comment given on yesterday's post. I actually read it, and somehow it feels like reading the Business section of straits times. Welp, I don't actually find anything to do with 'stocks, business, pte. ltd, investment' etc interesting. But what mentioned in the comment below - that's a pretty good technology huh? Allowing permission for access to confidential premises/files just by scanning your face. Do they take account plastic surgery? I mean you can make yourself look like someone else...
Whatever that was, it sounded ripped from some bogus email. Those kind of emails you get talking about business deals, investment, money-making at home, enlarging penises, naked girls and so on. They're all either targeted at lazy people, or horny bastards.
Now, what was gonna say? Ahhh riiight. Purple Gold.
If you check out Channel 5 these days, you would notice they have this new Lee Hwa advertisment that's on er....Purple Gold. You know, the commercial with blue grass, purple bamboo and stuff? If you still don't know which one I'm talking about, it's the one where the model holds her breast, and it has very disturbing background music.
'Ehhhh... ahhh ehh... ahhh ehhh...'
That one. But the model is hot la, she's.. well er, quite flat, but she's got a beautiful face.
Firstly, what the hell is purple gold? Gold is gold because it's golden colour, and by saying purple gold, is as good as saying purple metal... since the golden colour isn't left there to deem it to be gold anymore, you can just take some aluminium and colour it purple and say it's purple gold.... get me? For example, you won't call a man that looks exactly like a woman a womanly man... there's a whole new word for that - tranny.
Lee Hwa has crap jewellery.
And I still don't understand why the jewellery market is in uproar, since there is nothing nice about diamonds, sapphires, rubies and all. I mean, there is no practical use for these stuff.. and seriously I don't think women wear half of their jewellry on a regular basis. Why spend so much on something so small that is only visible when there's light? It's not like you're hanging a flashlight above your face 24/7 la...
All the peeps who are gonna get Purple Gold, are just going to cheat themselves. It's the pursuit for individuality, uniqueness, attention, breaking-out-of-the-crowd that makes strange, new things that break out of the ordinary trend so appealing to us. So then again, what satisfaction is there when you attain individuality? God gave us all the uniqueness we need. If you think about it, isn't pursuing individuality just human beings impressing other human beings, getting caught in a cycle of conformation. The latest trend now, is to look out-of-trend.
Very soon we'll have people wearing red silver, or blue rubies.
Magnitudinal Conspiracies
Deuteronomy 30:19
I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live
15 days more to Art Deadline! wooohho!
That's all I can say at this moment, the thought was carousing around my mind for awhile. It's a pretty stressful time in life... Prelims are a week away, art 'O' levels deadline in 15 days, geography untouched and financial problems. I'm a dead, dead man! Yeah!!
But then again... this is Sec 4. That basically explains everything.
Sec 4... hmm, this is sorta the end huh? After this, everyone of us would split up, each of us pursue our goals, get a girlfriend (it's pretty pointless to get one now), and then graduate. By then, who still remembers secondary school? I don't think I'll even remember the stress I'm feeling right now 20 years down from this very day. It'll all look like a vague, blurry piece of crap memory.
It's already crap now la. haha.
Kevin and I went to do some pull-ups this afternoon. Man, I can't even do one...I'm pretty shitty for my pull-ups. Kevin did 10 odd.... he's strong sia; he says he vents his anger by punching the walls at home. Err... well, so that's practise. I guess. And when we left he was singing - again... his singing is kinda pretentious, and Kevin actually seriously wanted me to pin-point out his vocal mistakes. He wants to be a singer.. the time he spend on singing is very close to the time Hanif spends on singing. And we all know Hanif literally sings everywhere he goes.
This bugger Kevin is actually a damn smart guy, probably smarter than Luke Ching (whose life is single-handedly revolving around studies). Cause when I talk to him, we somehow always come about topics on political issues or human behavioural patterns and stuff. And his responses are those damn 'university-level-professer' kind of responses. He's thought about it. You can tell. Sometimes I myself can't continue debating with him, cause his theories are perfectly correct.
He's acting stupid because he's humble enough, and I feel like I need to act stupid sometimes as well. You know, just to keep an eye on your pride and stuff.
Tuition!
I read a few blogs lately, and then I realised how un-dramatic I'm writing! Woah!
Basically I do not like to get into details of stuff, especially things that are very ... surface-level. Like a movie, house-warming, outing and stuff like that. But ---- of course, I will always blog about girl-encounters... just take Sonicfest for example. Being around guys 6 times a week is not very er... appealing.
Just that I feel like shit with most other male friends... think I'm too short, too fat, too ugly, or too something-or-another. It's having 80% of your pride eaten up, especially if you go out with those very superrr cool guys.. you'll definitely feel like shit. But girls! Around girls there's always this sense of "I gotta protect this girl!" kind of thing, and they don't mind how you look. Well, least the girls I've met are like that.
Hmm... why suddenly this talk about females? God knows why; I've asked Him a few times about how I feel towards............ her. She's leaving tuition earlier than the rest of us... that's what she told KPS. And that was on the very same day I talked to her!! Damn it! All this happened so darn fast.
Sigh...
I guess you gotta admit, there's times where you let things go even though you don't want to.
Few days back, I was an hour earlier for maths tuition. Cause I was napping at home, after some intensive studying... when I woke up, I checked the time on my phone and thought it was 5pm (I hate the 1500 kind of time format). So I rushed down there.. got up the bus and all.
There was a message from GM:
GM: Where are you?
SY: On the bus... aren't you going?
GM: For what?
SY: For tuition.
GM: Now's only four leh you go now for what?
SY: Oh! Lol, I mistook the time, nvm, I'll join in her sec 3 class.
GM: Help me buy Nasi Lemak.. you know that stall that one?
SY: Wah... can't you buy yourself?
GM: My father brigning me to tuition.. and he doesn't want me to buy the nasi lemak there.
SY: Why?
GM: Cause he says it's too oily and unhealthy
SY: Fine, I'll buy.
So I was studying SS on the bus. Yeah! Harrdcorree! And saw Ryan, bought the Nasi lemake, realise how frigging near he leaves from Smartlab la. That bugger, his maths like shit still don't wanna come into The Magical Realm Of Ms Kin Pei Shan. THE best math tutor ever. Hope he passes math la.
So I got in, and I sat down at the waiting area. Know VERY well Vickie was always the first to come for tuition. I was half expecting every person who came by the door to be her. Then she came.
She walked and paused at me for awhile, and headed down the hallway to KPS room. And then she walked back. Maybe she just wanted to see a familiar face (ME!!) or the table outside KPS room wasn't accesible (she sits there most of the time and do work). So there was this very very awkward silence among us for a good 15 minutes. She turned her head regularly, like as if wanted to ask me something.. and I very very much wanted to turn and smile and talk to her. But then I remembered she might realise I was that person who message her twice on deviantart... and wouldn't talk to me cause I acted like a stalker there.
Then this other girl from tuition came and she walked through the hallway.
Knowing it was damn awkward - besides, it was me, a guy, and her, a girl sitting alone silent - she walked after her and showed her some of her artworks.
I just tagged along, cause I guess I might feel more comfortable with a third party (the other girl from tuition) around. And I looked at her works.
That was then she flashed me the most cute, teasing, 'evil' facial expression ever seen from her. She withdrew the file she was showing to the other girl and hugged it on her chest.
SY: "What?" *she's staring at me, heartbeat escalates*
V: "Nothing, just that boys can't see this,"
I scratched the back of my head.
SY: "Okkkaay..." I sat down somewhere and looked from afar.
That pause at the waiting room was just... sweet and awkward. There's something about this girl that makes my heart jump a beat. I guess I will never be able to get hold of her, but I know, that facial expression she gave me, meant that she wasn't that cold and unsociable, and that's - my green light.
Overcoming Eccentricity
Somehow these days seem much lazier.... sian. You know those days when you seem to be sleeping more than usual... for some reason la. For me it's probably too much adrenaline these few days, rush of blood to the head and stuff.'
FOP for one, was awesome. Delirious rocked socks, they had cool music and amazing feats la. But of course we sat at the extreme left of stage so the projecting screen was inverted. When they flashed the lyrics you gotta take abit of time to analyse the inverted words before you could sing.
DELIRIOUS
Basically most of the parts I was singing some messed-up backwards babble like, "Dorl evas saihds!" "Majhda!" It's funny. When you don't know the words for a song but you just pretend to know em and read them off inverted. hehh. And you couldn't enter back into your seats if you got out of them to go toilet cause they were 'recording' some DVD out of the event. And us returning would create a distruption in the flow kinda thing. Meaning they didn't want you to see us returning from the toilet. I guess they wanted to delude viewers on how well Christians can control their bladders.
I wrote alot more than this. But the stupid explorer crashed on me, so all my unsaved words were down the technological drain somewhere. Oh how great technology is sometimes! Screw this. What I wanna say is Senses Fail rocks, their one of the best punk rock bands there is around....
senses fail
Seriously, you gotta hear them. Man, I knew them so long but I didn't know they were this good until I re-organised some songs. Guitar picking is awesome...their kinda repetitive, but their skill brings down the house la. WOOHOO.
Luke 3:14
And the soldiers likewise demanded of him, saying, And what shall we do? And he said unto them, Do violence to no man, neither accuse any falsely; and be content with your wages.
Remember that well :]
Feudal Era
I'm exhausted.
I noticed the pageviews here are increasing... hmmm! Welp, how cool is that? Heerre to thank all those who drop by (especially if it's more than once), and even those who got here due to Search engine results. I must say if you do find any valuable information about anything here, you gotta tell me. Cause I'm sure this site is crap. Thank you for actually reading this sentence right now.... I just think there's nothing exciting that's happening in my life. Nothing commercialised. I'm just an ordinary person... well, who extraordinarily blogs for in fear of forgetting everything when I'm older.
Wait a minute, where was I? Oh... yes, exhausted.
Well, just that these few days Wei Min sorta got me hooked on watch "Chobits". It's this show about humanoid robots-human romance kinda thing. It's cool. Cause there's alot of close-to-hentai kinda stuff... haha.
Wait. What am I saying? I told Edwin I don't watch animated porn like hentai. Hmm..it's basically getting horny over some lines and colours on a screen. Anyway I had to watch late at night and have been sleeping over 1am for 3 days. The DVDs' long gone, Wei Min had to return them to the rental shop. So noooo borrowing... i know you're interested *wink*. XD
Tonght is the last day before I finish the Purpose Driven Life book. You're s'posed to read one chapter a day for 40 days to know God. I don't seem to be able to get what God wants me to do into my head. But this book is also one of the reasons why I lose precious minutes of slumber... hehh. But I can't blame it cause everything the book says is true... if you're a Christian you gotta get this book. If not for that book I wouldn't be here, happy with God, creation, enemies, Dora Lee, George W. Bush, Britney Spears etc. Cause basically the book gives you the idea of what's important now.
Tomorrow's full-dress rehearsal for Stars Wars. I keep telling myself I gotta be shameless infront of the judges on the actual day so I don't gena stage-fright like last year... hopefully it works. Hmmm.. let's see, I've got the -1s, I've burnt the CD compilation, I've printed the lyrics for the song I'm performing, next would be deciding what to wear for the day.
What the hell... that would take another hour or so (please note the time of this entry)...
I'm damn shagged.
You Do Not Have To Read This..
Gotta blog about Sonicfest before I forget everything...
Hmmm, where did this long day start? Ah, when I met Ben at PP Station and we walked all the way to Macpherson to take 65/64 to Dhoby Ghaut. Man, I could've taken NEL... but somehow I'm good at making wrong choices.. lol. Partially cause my Dad told me to. Show's my filial piety huh? Yeah yeah, I know I'm crapping.
Reached Fort Canning Park after some "is it here? is it there?"s, and met up with Aunty Wai Cheng (hope it's correctly spelt) and the other group members. Man, Ben and I were the only two guys in the group. So there was Aunty Irene, Esther, Cheryl and Liane. All from Church Of Our Savior.
We all went for lunch at Park Mall cause our shift starts at 1 and we got the time... I didn't know you could actually buy a flat in Park Mall and live in there until Aunty Wai Cheng mentioned it. I'm damn blur, I know... kept giving the stunned face. We ate at Han's.. haha, another first timer.. I'm damn noob in Singapore la... everything's like new to me. Ben bought minute-maid at Watson's and they gave him free Darlie toothpaste. Wth? I'm wondering what's with the desperate attempt from Darlie. lol.
Esther is a swimmer, she's dark and tan and chubby... really cute practical girl. Especially her voice, like innocent.. and she's not acting. I know it. She trains like almost everyday.. can you imagine?? I LOST TO A GIRL!!! WTH! Lol I'm kidding, God's grace. No lah, Esther's fine... loves Sonicflood.
Liane is the shortest girl... I was telling Ben I gotta get Zinc tablets... she came in and
"Why do you have to get Zinc tablets?"
"Cause it's s'posed to make you grow taller,"
"Oh! Then I gotta get Zinc tablets too,"
Haha... she's funny, cause the way she said it was like *long pause* then suddenly blurts she needs 'em too. She's in Track and Field... so she's frigging good and dodging people blocking her.. I commented on that while we got drinks.
And best of all she laughs at lame jokes... cause ushering can be kinda sian so we all started amusing ourselves. Ben was the best... the most lame jokes came from him.. ahh he just wanted to lighten up the scene. So she kept laughing at our lameness... And we talked about school, scandals, then gays/lesbians in school... she's from Cedar.. loads of spicy details >;] and I seriously admitted I might gay-bash anyone who is.
In the end she became lame herself cause our lameness was infectious: Ben -> Me -> Liane. She started taking these empty plastic santa shoes in Cold Storage during dinner and played around with it to amuse everyone. Haha... see how miraculous guys; lameness works!!! Wooohoo!! I bet you're feeling lame now... embrace that vibe....
Cheryl was the oldest la... she's sec 4.. and I think she's kinda mixed-blood (Dutch! Dutch!). So she was pretty attractive, and she's a keyboardist at COOS. How cool is that? She's just smiles at our lameness, and she's quirky - we went for dinner and had to walk down these steps and she kept telling us
"WAIT! I need to take a picture of you guys walking down the steps!"
"You're walking too fast!"
Liane says she pities her future boyfriend. Lol. I think she's kinda okay... but she did her eccentric thing again. We saw this girl taking a picture of her friend from the otherside of the road and she said she should do that. So we kinda convinced her not to, she decided to take the word 'CREW' behind Liane's shirt... but cause Liane had a distracting ponytail and all, she took mine. Can you imagine? lol..
That afternoon the girls did some T-Shirt painting thing. And Cheryl was fretting, asked me to draw this dead flower nearby. Then she painted it into a pink blob and she was whining and screaming and going nuts... lol. Eccentric girl... she's cute when she does that though.
Then at dinner (without Ben cause he didn't wanna go PS with us), we sorta started talking about my weak bladder and I told them how I always get a full bladder before any movie ends in the theatre. Told em about Spiderman 2... where I had to ask some buddy to hold my bag while I dash cause it was those hit-me-and-my-bladder-bursts kinda situation.
I must say I was probably the most slack crew member ever. Cause I was one of the few who stood infront when Sonicflood performed. They were damn good lah... cause we all were jumping and jumping as they sang and raised our hands and stuff. I personally hadn't come across this kind of worship so it felt good to praise God with other people who were as 'on'. Engulfing in his love kinda stuff. And I saw Mal and Luke... heh..
And to prove I'm damn slack, Esther and I were the only two super kiasu to go line up for Sonicflood's autograph even before they finished performing. And yet again, I think I was the only crew member in the queue. It's kinda diu lian haha. But that's me; hear something new and its good and it's ALLL THEE WAYYY.
And at the end of the festival, Cheryl and I walked back to Dhoby Ghaut MRT. We talked about her minstry, her church and all. I sorta asked her what she thought about City Harvest, and she changed my point of view about them. She said she was like me, thought they had some weird practices and didn't like them - But then she thought and thought over, and her Dad says they were actually a good church, they were just strict to their teens (bible study and all)... so I guess what's the point scrutinising them?
Ahhh... what a way to end the day.. a walk with a beautiful gal...
Err... by that I meant she's beautiful inside... I dont' poach every girl la. Right now it's still her in this loser's heart.