Wolfmother's White Unicorn
Haha.. I am finally back. And it's quite safe to say that it was better organised than the 4ST chalet I had earlier this year - where we had this really poor conditioned chalet in downtown east - and there was amazing food from Pepper's parents. They cooked stuff like chicken curry and cheese hotdogs and baked pasta.
The thing about our house was it was just NEXT to the pool, NEXT to the main facility block, and NEXT to the beach. So it was gooooooooooood. Hahaha, just that the whole resort itself was in the middle of nowhere in Changi. 5 Miles from civilization. And that sucks pretty much. It's also the only chalet I've been to where I see loads of people jogging and cycling at the beach outside. So I found that pretty unusual.
But then, it's a National Service resort right?
Haha.
Err... cheese?
We went to the beach and the girls went to collect shells while we played frisbee. Next time, if you wanna work out the muscles in your butt cheeks ah, you really gotta play frisbee. I don't HOW on earth frisbee trains the butt, but it works. Haha. Hanif and I got really sore right buttcheeks the next day from playing frisbee.
And then Clarence and I got into a frisbee fight cause we were trying to slap each other's butt. Yeah, I know it's stupid.. but that's us. We're always doing stuff to get back each other.
*I must give Hanif a special gratitude speech for coming down the chalet even though he was suppose to be in the middle of fasting month.* Haha.. funny thing was he was really laid back cause I think maybe he was trying to conserve energy until dinnertime.
We played games like throwing cards on the floor and shouting out a number and you have to find those cards. And the girls were viiiiiciiious man.. hahahaha...they grabbed for the cards like it were diamonds. And then we played Heart Attack and somehow Dilys always gets it.
Karaoke
When night came we ate more curry chicken and instant noodles, and Pepper took out this $5 karaoke vcd with 2001 english pop hits. Hahahaahahahahahaa, and we thought maybe the CD will play the the music videos while we sang along. But ALAS, the videos were all cheesey settings with some women walking around aimlessly, flinging their hair. HAhaa so anyway the whole karaoke experience turned into something like this:
LOL
Project: Annihilation
Pepper got bugged out by this huge lizard in the kitchen. And the three of us came up with a scheme to kill it. Clarence said using hot water will kill it, so he stood on a chair and he poured hot water down on the lizard and it ran down the wall, and he splashed it again. And then it ran out to the living room, while the three of his murderers follow suit, with Clarence pouring more water until the lizard ran to a corner. And Pepper took her insecticide and prayed on the lizard for a good 30 seconds. But it was still alive and it was running to our sitting area so Clarence too the mug he was pouring his water with and use it to slam on the lizard's head. And then it was. The poor lizard died flattened, and project annhilation was over.
'Clubbing'
And then we had a movie marathon and we started with Honey. Honey was all about dancing. So after the show we all sorta got hyped up to dance. So we replayed the ending song of that show and turned off all the lights and all of us started to caper and girate and tap dance like as if we're in a club. And Clarence (our pro dancer) taught us all some moves. And I remembered it was the first time ever I saw Shaun paul go so wild hahahaha.
The Rapture Talk
After that Pepper and Dilys went to 'sleep' (I'll explain later), while the rest of us: Hanif, Clarence, Me, Shaun Paul, and Faith continued to watch The Omen. Haha and we were like teasing Faith to be one of guys cause she didn't sleep with the other girls. So anyway after The Omen, we paused the movie marathon for awhile and we went into this discussion about God, the afterlife, sins, Muslims-Jews-Christians-have-the-same-God, love, hell, and alot of other stuff relating to rapture. It was a TOTAL inspiration to listen to Faith and SP talk cause both of them were really rooted in Christ. And Hanif were telling us about his faith and everything. It's like the first big serious discussion I had with the group of them. We're always all jokes and all fun and it's comforting, that we all can confide about mature stuff too.
I think the end is inevitable. I think it will happen. But you know sometimes our belief in the end is so strong we give up trying to change the world cause we know it will end in chaos anyway? I don't wanna be like that. I still wanna change the world. Cause like Faith said, rapture will probably be in our generation or the next. And in this period of time there's still so many people out there who still don't know about God. And that's kinda sad. Sometimes I pray for the people I read on notproud.com. I read their confessions and sometimes it impacts me so much. Cause for some reason I know these people who wrote about their most sickest, awful, tragic sins all have that willingness to change. I guess what I wanted to say is I don't want to give up. Even though I know eventually my efforts will cease into waste when rapture comes.. but in the midst you have put in 100% in living out your life and that feeling is so so much more satisfying than giving up.
Haha I digressed huh..
As I was saying we ended with watching resident evil and then we went to sleep. Hanif and I went upstairs to the guy's room to sleep while the rest 'slept' downstairs.
Birthday Surprise
I immediately fell asleep, and had this spooky nightmare that my neighbour was a girl whose parents recently died in a tragic accident (it must be all those horror movies). And for some reason I was lurking around in her house in total blackness. And then suddenly, I heard screamings and shoutings and my whole body was being shaken awake and it was the freakiest moment in my 17 years of existence man. I thought something pounched on me in that house but then when I woke up, I realise it was this:
Haha, okay. So I guess Happy Birthday to me.
Apparently none of them actually went to 'sleep' and they were all planning that. Hahaha.. they were all whispering and everything when I was asleep, but then I'm such a deep sleeper Clarence had to jump on the bed just to wake me. Haha anyway he looked damn retarded right.. hahaha.
And I must thank all of you who made the birthday surprise for me....Pepper, Faith, Dilys, SP, Clarence, Hanif. I didn't see it coming at all, and thanks for making my 17th birthday count so much.. hahaha, love ya guys w0rxxxxs.
We all woke up around 12 the next day. And when Joel came over to join us we went bowling. Hahaha.. it was my first time bowling and the balls are so bloody heavy I had trouble getting used to them. So we split ourselves into two groups and we battled it out. Our team won the first round, and Clarence's totally nailed the second. Joel was such an excellent bowler la. So it was kinda duh they will win.. hahaha.. see I'm such a nice guy. I complimented Joel.
The pro player : Joel
wo shi xiao long nu w0rx
Then we went to the arcade for abit and played time crisis which was an absolute-coin-waster. And we went back to eat Pepper's baked pasta and we played some games. And I played Jenga for the first time too. It's quite stressful when it gets unstable and the slightest swaying of the blocks get's you trembling, it gave me pre-o-level syndromes. Tsk tsk.
Hanif left cause he couldn't stay for two nights and we continued playing while Mr Choong and Mr Tan were watching 8 Mile and continuously adding the F-words whenever they censored it in the show. So in the end the movie wasn't really very family-oriented. ._.
But Joel gave me this funky present he made himself and it was cool. It was like an 'instruction manual' to listening to metal and there was a CD he burned with some metal songs. Hahahaha. Thanks.
After Joel had to leave and then it was back to the few of us, and we watched more TV and then the girls went to the beach so SP, Clarence and I went swimming. So we were swimming to the other end of the pool (which was very deep) and then suddenly SP started to struggle and he asked me for help. I was kinda shocked and immediately swam up to him and tried to bring him to the other side. The lifeguard came and gave him a big hooha speech about staying near shallow waters. So eventually we found a spot and we talked for a good hour. And I really wanna be a lifeguard in this kind of secluded resort man. It's good pay and it's good calm environment.
Rapist?
Pepper and Dilys were freaked out by this man who was lurking around our house wearing an angel suit. He came the night before and sad he gave massages for 20 bucks, and then he was at it today and the two of them kept thinking he was some rapist. Hahaha, kinda funny..
JT, SP, Pepper
We went back to the chalet and Jing Ting finally joined us. And then she started to rant about how she was trying to catch up with Shinhwa and then their manager shouted at her and she was so malu. And she talked about her work and about this really mean colleague she had. Haha I really like to hear her angsty rants cause she's always so animated.
Our Jenga that night was GG
JT takes her towel and poses as Bae Yong Jun
*must keep smiling ahh, must keep smiling*
Fondue and Project Runway
And then Vivien, Elizabeth and Jacque came and we sat down to watch Project runway. And Jing ting and I started to diss this contestant who looked like Terence and Elton John together, and he made a hat out of a basket and it was quite hilarious. And then there was one contestant's work that one judge said looked like grandmother panties and we were all just bursting out with laughter. And we also watched a Finer Side and saw how Dick Lee splurge like no one's business. Faith said it was so wrong.. he like instantaneously spent $300,000 for his birthday! Hahahaha and we were discussing how many macbook pros and DSLRs you can get with that amount of money, and how Dick isn't really that rich and he shouldn't do that. Then VIVIEN made some awesome fondue and we had fondue banana and marshmellows. And they kept making the chocolate drip higher and higher from the bowl like as if it's Yu Sheng.
Fondue - Yu Sheng
Vivien and her yu sheng fondue
Drama Drama Drama
Then after that Jing Ting started to argue about how Jacque's name is supposed to be pronounced. And Clarence and SP tried to diss her back and I took a vid of all that.
Lololol....
And then we watched Over The Hedge which was super adorable. And we ended with watching Joel's The Cube. It was so engaging that it got everyone trying to come up with theories of what's going to happen and stuff. By the time cube ended it was already 3 am, and then Elizabeth and Jacque left, even though we tried persuading them to stay. And then we watch cube 2: hypercube which to me was a bad rendition of the first cause it was quite pointless the whole time until the end. And the cubes kept giving Dilys and Pepper headaches.
Me, Elizabeth's boyfriend Jacque (the stupid one standing),
Clarence, SP, JT, Faith, Pepper, Dilys,
Vivien and Elizabeth.
As usual, Clarence scurries to the front and blocks everyone. Lol
In the end it was 4 plus. And Somehow we couldn't go to sleep. So everyone decided to not sleep at all and last it out till checkout time. So we all went up to the girl's room and their huge beds and squeezed 8 people on a queen-size. Haha. And we talked about how we got to know each other and alot alot of stuff until 7.
And the day ended when Viven's dad took us to the bus interchange and we took our buses home.
Must really thank God for these awesome people and how we made this whole chalet the most memorable experience ever. And thank you to everyone who was willing to come chalet. Hahaha, you all are for the win.
This is really such such such a long post.
Okay, my fingers hurt. Lol
Take Me Back To Your House
My blog is screwing up. Anyway I'm back.
There's a really long post that's coming up.
Alright, Parker, Here's Your Rubik's Cube.
This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything. Awesome verse when I was reading today.
This is probably something I wanna do like really soon. Haha, like get a few friends and we do a collaboration. It could be street art like this, or just normal canvas stuff, doesn't really matter but it's gonna be cool. And because of my crap blog dimensions you can't see the whole thing so why don't we all just enjoy the full size pic.
AND HADY WON. Oh my man. I thought Jonathan would totally nail it cause he's got the onstage confidence and stuff. Look how he raises out his hand and flashes the \w/ sign all the time. But Hady's fine I guess. He did through the fire and no normal person can reach those notes. Like some people might think singapore idol is crappy but seriously some of them can do stuff that most others can't and that by itself is cool enough.
I just defended art with a bunch of engineers in msn just now and it felt so so good. Haha, it's like vsc has fired up a purpose for me man. We were on it for 30 minutes. I kinda love fiery talks like these, and now it's so rare cause there aren't anymore sec school drama. Haha...
Haha, alright, enough ranting.
1 John 3: 19 - 20
Can You Imagine Her House?
SY wrote at 2:08 am
He Took Both Of Us.
It's like you hear testimonies all the time. I hear about how people have spectacular instances where their lives changed cause God appeared to them or something and they just broke down. Like Whoooo! Some huge impact just swept them off their feet and they fell down and accepted Christ. Those dramatic testimonies, those miracles, those spectacular stuff you hear about but never experience it yourself. And I used to wonder, do these things even happen? If so why none of that ever happens to me. Like there must be something wrong with me or something cause God never seem to do stuff like that to me.
But seriously, these stuff do HAPPEN.
There's really something as spectacular as fusing with God as one. Like being in His embrace so strongly, it just numbs you of the rest of the world. I dunno, but I always thought of the God idea as a distant, intangible thing. But that night changed everything.
I felt it and I'M PRETTY VORTEX-STELLAR-NEBULA SURE IT EXISTS.
Don't just take me as another one of those people whose feeling something you will never feel. Cause it will happen to you. If you have the faith in things larger than yourself, then trust me.
You will feel Him hold you. And it's gonna be out of this world.
Federal Bereau Of Instigation
My mum talks to me as if like I'm a pot-crazy hippie. She was asking me for the 10th time this month to teach her how to use the internet when my Dad, bro and I have taught her like 5 over times. It just drives me nuts when she forgets I've taught her and then blame me for being selfish. She doesn't blame my brother or my Dad. But everything is me, my fault. So I'm the bad guy in the family to her. It pisses me off cause she doesn't take time to know me and the stuff I do and just immediately pass her judgements that I'm useless and selfish. And I try hard to change her judgement, like I do some chores, and I tell her some stuff that's happening in my life, and I help her look after my brother, but the ONLY way I can appease her is to stay at home everyday, and do housework and tutor my brother and read tonnes of books. Which, is inevitably, asking me to become a nerdy teenage girl, and I can't do that.
Wait till my brother is my age and he has his own friends and his own stayovers and stuff. Then she'll see my point that I'm not the bad guy, just the son she has to let grow up.
That's why I always say I really wanna talk to her when we're in heaven. I'd like to sit down with her for hours and hours, and as long as eternity lasts and talk about stuff that happened in our lives we never get to talk about now. Cause I have this idea that everyone becomes their true good selves when their up there. Right now, she's suffered too much neural turmoil over the years to really become who she used to be.
I'll take my chances.
On The Subject...
Dougal Wilson's work truely amazes me. Maybe I'll post more of his stuff later. And if you're wondering, the band you see is Badly Drawn Boy.
What's Happening (Like Really)
Emo things shall be refrained from this blog for the time being. Or else you all will really start to buy me sneakers and eye-liners and a cheap old skateboard.
So I shall update the REAL tangible things that's been happening:
Last week GM told me something damn true. It just dawned on me when I was lolling on the train seat back home.
God helps those who help themselves.
It sounds cliche and stuff, but it's absolutely 100% factual. My gwarsh, I'm gonna hang that on my wall or something man. Haha.
And I realise from Shawn that this underground music business is more wary than I thought it was. Like wtckt man, Joel you asswipe don't wanna tell me about that Friday gig HUH. He told me about it and stuff.. haha. And yeah, I am those kinda people that will become the third party when someone comes into the conversation. But that's life. And if that's the role I'm given, I don't mind living an introverted life.
I'm gonna hate my WMP if they shuffle songs I listen to alot. Cause I'm putting it at random and it seems to be shuffling songs I listen to alot and I DON'T WANT THAT. I've got like 900 songs in my playlist I forgot the tune to and I'm on an obligation to know more or less all my songs.
Lydia is sending me wayy too much chain letters. Haha..
I think Mike just broke up with his torturous girlfriend. But he's not telling me anything. He's too caught up with his life. I hope everything's fine in Canada and stuff. And I hope he's still writing those awesome poems I used to quote. Haha..
Alright, that's about it. Let it stay that way. I'm gonna post some random stuff this whole week.
That Look Is Kinda Creepy So....
You're working for the police and the private, the pirates and the pilots
Fingerprinted waiting for the train
a doctor, a writer, a hairdresser,
Felt up and fingerprinted waiting for the train
Lord lord mother your all losing love
Lord listen lover your all missing mama
Lord lord mother your all losing love
Lord listen lover your all missing something I don't got
Bang And Olufsen Made Heaps With This Thing
These few days it has always been S Club 7. Haha, and everyone is asking me what's this whole deal with S Club - their passe, their gone, their over. And even though it's technically classified 'uncool' to still be obsessed over 4 year old clean pop songs, but hey.. you can't blame anyone who wants to sit back and remember the past. Hahaha
Songs for me have very specific meaning. Like one song can depict a phase in my life wayyy back then. And then I never ever touch that song again. It's like a tissue for tears kinda thing? You soak it in your tears and then it's down the dustbin. That part of life is over. And I usually don't ever listen to that song ever again.
So S Club has been a big part of this kid-to-teen part of life. Yeah. And then a few days back I accidentally came upon one of their songs on Youtube, and all these thoughts, idealogies, feelings, concepts and events just start to flood my head all over.
There's an oblivion to it actually; why one song can create so much nostalgia. I guess I use songs as roadblocks, or memory banks. And everytime I hear it, I'm reminded of those people and those things that happen in that span of time. S Club 7, has created loads of those banks. Weeellll...It's corny music yeah, but I've gone passed the difference in maturity then and now, gone passed the social stigma that song now holds, and appreciated it for being one song in the soundtrack of my life.
Hmmm... soundtrack of my life.
I bet everyone has something like that.
Songs that cut so deep, it's inevitably part of us? It's as if they were the songs that carried us through difficult times. Like a photo album, but sorta in a less tangible kinda way. Haha..whatever am I talking about. The rhythmn, the smooth transitions of the synthesizer beats with the acoustic guitar, and the perfectly harmonized voices. Those are the things that comfort me. The way the music calms me down and make me think through things more thoroughly. It's played over and over, and the familiarity it draws out is like that of a friend's. And I seek comfort in the tiny things like that.
Music is probably the most awesome gift God has ever given. Haha. I can't imagine our world without things like notes, or tabs, or singing, or mikes and stands and violins and guitars and on and on. Small things that create greater sounds and rhythms that our ancestors never thought of ever creating. The way a series of notes and words can pull your mood up and down, make you feel good about yourself, or make you cry cause you're reminded of something that goes with the song. It can exagerrate whatever you're feeling, amplify it a thousandfold, and make you do things you never thought you would.
Woah, it sounds kinda divine huh. haha.
YEAH AND I'M PISSED S CLUB BROKE UP. Hahahaha
Zen Zune Pods
Hey hey, the papers are talking about a new mp3 player that Microsoft came up with called Zune.
"Yay, next we'll have Sony butting in with a new mp3 player too,"
It's this new ipod look-alike, it's said to be the first of a series of portable devices set to beat Apple's ipod and everything else under that name. And well, what's new? Apple Vs Microsoft, Sony Vs Microsoft. Microsoft's the big giant that's trying to beat everyone at everything.
Haha hey I'm not tech saavy. But this new Zune has an awesome function of wireless file transfer that iPod still hasn't have. Seriously, I wouldn't mind getting it. It's definitely gonna have a longer battery life, bigger screen, and the fact that there's-too-many-ipods-around is a nice throw in. And well, that's kinda something apple has to counteract for man...
YES be anti-ipod and support longer battery life! Hahahaha
And where on earth is Creative in this competition? Haha..seems like no one gives a shit about them.
So Politically Incorrect.
My gwarsh I thought nobody would make fun of PCD other than GM.
But Shawn and I were like seriously dissing them last night.. hahhaahahhahahaahaaaaaa. I laughed like a crazy nut. Hoorah to pop bands that are led by one lead singer all the time.
Haha anyway, I just wanted to say my hair is growing longer. It's poking into my eyes and strandling over my ears. Another hoorah to that.
Pop Sock Lock
Sometimes, a lot of stuff can make a hell lot better of a person.
And I'm gonna show my gratitude to all those who made a difference for me. One way or another. I've been an ingrate for the longest time ever.
First stop, to email roark.
Hey Henry
Yay I lost my voice after worship min. Again.
I was thinking whether would I zao xia on the first day I step up on stage during youth service. Like make a major screwup, sing the wrong lyrics, or do a bad rendition of the tenor part, or 1001 other mistakes. But then again - Who knows when I'm going on stage right!? The big question mark. Haha, I shouldn't even be worried cause I don't even know when I'm gonna sing on stage...
Actually, I've always had really bad stage frights... as in, I remember when we performed for school events, I'll always take like hours psyching myself up. And everyone else would just casually pick up their instruments, and I'm expected to just follow suit and pick up my mic like it's a nonchalent-rockstar-thing. Somehow my band members were never bothered with the tension. Maybe playing an instrument kind of makes it your guard. I dunno... Like you can always hide behind your instrument and play, concentrate on playing, don't look at the crowd, and it'll be alright. Maybe it's like that. But I still honestly respect people who play instruments, it's a talent you know. Even if they aren't talented enough to make it big, they spend like hours and hours practicing, and that's already a commitment worth praising over. I can't play anything to save my life, except maybe the recorder. So I look up to good instrumentalists.
It's a whole different life with a mic. You have to look at the crowd, psyche them up, make strained faces when you hit a high note, and still look like you aren't making a fool of yourself. That's why I respect the vox people alot. like ALOT. Cause they are the ones without the guard, the upfront ones to first get all the snide remarks, see the expressions on all those faces, accept whatever the audience trashes at you, etc.
So I know I'll probably sweat buckets on my first up-stage - I can feel it. I can't be so straight-faced as Kenny.
Well, everything is in Him. Even if I really screw up really badly and stuff, at least I've tried and done my best for the Lord. And I seriously think - that's all I want. And that's all that matters.
Just Do This If You're Bored
I have read a book before
I have ran more than 2 miles without stopping
I have been to Canada
I have been on some sort of sports team
I have watched cartoons for hours before
I have tripped UP the stairs
I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs
I have been snowboarding/skiing
I have played ping pong
I swam in the ocean
I have been on a whale watch
I have seen fireworks
I have seen a shooting star
I have seen a meteor shower
I have almost drowned
I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear
I have listened to one cd over & over & over again
I have had stitch(es)
I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there
I have stayed up til 6am doing homework/projects
I currently have a job
I have been ice skating
I have been rollerblading
I have fallen flat on my face
I have tripped over my own two feet
I have been in a fist fight
I have played videogames/com for more than 3 hours straight
I have watched The Power Rangers before
I have played truth or dare
I have already had my 16th birthday
I have already had my 17th birthday
I've called someone stupid. And i meant it.
I've been in a verbal argument
I've cried in school
I've played basketball on a team
I've sung in a choir
I've danced in a group
I've done cheerleading on a team
I've swam on a team
I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life
I've bungee jumped
I've climbed a rock wall before
I've lost more than $20
I've called myself an idiot
I've called someone else an idiot
I've cried myself to sleep
I've had (or have) pets
I've owned a Spice Girls cd. and or tape
I've owned a Britney Spears cd
I've owned an N*Sync cd
I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd
Ive mooned someone
I've sworn at someone in authority
I've been in the schoolnewspaper/insights
I've been on TV
I've eaten sushi
I've been on the other side of a waterfall
I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies
I've watched all the Harry Potter movies
I've watched the 3 Stooges at least once
I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica
I've watched Looney Tunes before
I've been stuffed into a locker
I've been called a geek
I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade
I've not studied at all for a test and aced it
I've met a celebrity / music / TV artist
I've written poetry
I've been arrested
I've been attracted to someone much older than me
I've been tickled till I've cried
I've tickled someone else until they cried
I've had / have siblings
I've been to a rock concert
I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it
I've been in a play
I've cried in front of my friends
I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
I've freaked out over a sports game
I've vomited in public
I've washed someone elses vomit
I've ran away
Ive had a stalker
I've had a fight with someone on txt
I've had a fight with someone face-to-face
I've been on a car accident
I've forgiven someone who has done something bad to me
I've personally seen something die
I've been confronted by a police officer but got away
I've lost someone who meant the world to me
I've had crashed a party
I've been a member of a school office
I've been suspended
And I'm so sorry I can't go for Joel's bbq birthday. Seriously.
AHHHHHrrii AHHH
Okay... the holidays are beginning to get bored. Cause I'm stuck in Jedi Knights and I don't wanna continue any longer.. hahaha.. so it seems like there's nothing much left to do other than that.
Alternatively, I've borrowed a new book, bought a couple of CDs (one REALLY bad one), and watched a few DVDs. It's been really laid back... no planning, no schedules and stuff. YES I LOVE THE WAY IT IS LIKE THIS. But then I don't have money to do whatever I want whenever I want. Hahaha... yea.I had pics when hanif and I went out. But I can't find the stupid cable that plugs the handphone to the computer, so the pics are remaining in the phone.
We saw these whole bunch of Mexicans dancing and then there were musicians playing mexican music.. There's a name for these kinda performances...but I can't remember. Haha
The dancers were amazing. They danced with water-filled glasses on top of their heads. It's pretty cool.. I wanna learn how to do that one day. So as they stomped and dance and frolicked their long skirts, they were making this high random screeches like "AAAHHHHHHHhhrrriiiAHHH!!" and it really shocked the shit out of me. Haha yea I kinda jerked. Hahaha. I didn't know anyone would be excited enough to that while dancing mexican. Anyway I found it kinda funny. Can you imagine while you're dancing infront of a mob of people and then you scream something totally random and eccentic?
Maybe while doing tango and then you scream,
"AAAhhhRRIIII! I LOVE CHECKED PANTS!!!!"
K, that was seriously bad joke. Haha.. alright, but some people really do do that.
Alright goodnight.. haha
Superpowers!
Joshua Radin's The Fear You Won't Fall is stuck in my head.
I know you're scared that I'll soon be over it
That's part of it all
Part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won't fall
Haha anyway, that was random.
Today I took sometime to do an X-Men marathon. I watched the X men trilogy back-to-back. It was pretty good, the storyline flowed better, but the last movie still sucked. Haha. Yeah, so I was eating beehoon and drinking milk and watching the TV the whole afternoon. And I just watched how Halle Berry's white wig become shorter and shorter with each passing movie, and how Jean Grey's became longer and longer.
My mum says it's unproductive, and I should really get a job. But I'm too trashed to get a job - it'll just make my mood drop a thousand fold. I don't like working.. not yet haha.
It's funny how we engulf ourselves with the desire to have powers, and fly and stuff. That's why superheros sell. I see children dressed in funky spiderman and power ranger costumes all the time, with their mini capes and plastic guns.. haha, it's pretty cute watching them, and remembering you once did something like that. When I was younger I wished I had powers too. I wished I could fly and I could move things with my mind, and I would run really fast and make *swooshing* noises across the kitchen and living room until my mum got so mad. Haha. Those were the days growing up.
But I guess in every one of our hearts - Be it when we were little and naive, or maybe even now - we want or wanted to have powers. At least there was a time. There was a time some of us wanted to be someone larger than life, you know? Like really take control of our lives, set all the wrongs right with our magnificent superhuman powers, and then use it to help the rest of the ones around us.
The legendary superhero dream that we all once had.
For me, my superhero dreams are my ambitions. Sure they aren't those physically impossible dreams, but they are superheroic to me...at least. They are those things that make people around me happy and content. And that's relatively on the context of being a 'superhero' - to help innocent people?
.... well.. so it's SORTA there. Hahaha.
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Ahhh yessss! Season 2 Grey's Anatomy now at 75.4%!
When it's done I'm gonna have a lard of a good time doing a GA marathon.
*screams like a madman and capers around*
Cannonball Into The Water
Sometimes, I wish I could run away from it all. I wish I had a total different life.
I wish I was that pan-asian guy in that see-through kitchen in that arabic restaurant I saw just now. Just lying in my small cozy kitchen, whipping up dishes for a small group of regulars. Alone, barricaded behind the steel and plastic counter, away from the people and the sights. Away from the things that gives me pressure, and the situations that I wish could change. I could be around familiar yet distant faces, with no obligations to them, get to know them slowly and quietly. And just let my life drift by peacefully and without distractions.
I get so tired of the situations around me sometimes, I just feel like packing up and heading to another country and start all afresh by myself.
I just want to stop thinking about everyone. Stop worrying for everyone, and stop worrying for myself. Stop being bound to the implications of school, and the parental laws that are hounded above me, and the people around me. I just want to have a few really good friends, have a really stable quiet business. And just be happy.
Sometimes some things just make me wanna squat down and just yell everything out.
A good friend tells me I'm on the losing end. Maybe I am. But I just want to see things work out. I'm having really mixed feelings now.. but I don't mind being the one who loses. As long as everyone turns out really happy. Seriously.
Maybe one day, when the wind blows another way. I WILL pack my bags, and just leave it all behind. So that I can muster that strength and come back and face it all over again. And hopefully it'll be set right.
Don't worry about me, I'm perfectly fine. :] I'm just writing what it all feels right now.
Sith Lords
YES! Thanks to Sh (who so generously lent $15 to me to get my trunks), I can now resume back swimming schedules. Such a great friend right. It was so dumb cause the whole day, he was busy with his PW and I was hooked on Jedi Knights 2, so we pushed the meeting time from 12, to 2, to 4, then to 5... but I could only reach at 6. In the end we roamed about Marina Square, got the trunks, laughed and did stupid things for 2 hours and we went home.
Haha yes, in a way... it was pointless.
But anyway, I'm getting too hooked on gaming. This is really bad.
GEMS (The Gist Of It)
I was in Malaysia today. My family and I go there sometimes. It's really a routine; once a month or so, Dad would suggest going to Malaysia. And then we would get ourselves caught up with the latest games and movies. Splurging and splurging on inexpensive things, and then leaving with filled bags and empty pockets.
So one thing we do before all that, is to eat at this chicken rice stall - set in the middle of a lane facing an empty cobblestone street. It's only half a year old from renovation, and the subtle lights and veneered plywood really makes anyone think it's high class restaurant - until you smell the stench inside la. Lol. And according to my brother and Dad (who have eaten there before it was refurbished), they used to serve faaantastic chicken rice. Like the kinds you will never get to eat in Singapore.
And so for the first few times I went there, I really enjoyed it.
But today was different. The attendant served us our chicken (half a steam chicken and half a roasted one), and he suddenly stood up and asked.
"Why is there so little breast meat?"
Believe me, my Dad is those kind of quiet solemn men who people count as alphamales. So it wasn't his cup of tea to raise an objection in public. So he asked it in the nicest way ever to that lady attending us. And she went speechless, and said she'll ask her boss.
Suddenly, this auntie sitting two tables from us spoke to my Dad, "Uncle? You also think they give very little chicken meat hor?"
"Yes, very little, they use to give quite abit, but the portions are getting smaller and smaller,"
And this started a huge long string of consumer angst that I'm too lazy to blog about. But my Dad said something about 'Dishonest business," that I kept pondering about that. Like how people give you a bad plate of chicken rice cause they just want the money that comes with it. I guess service isn't really a big thing in the suburbs of Malaysia (neither is it in Singapore, actually). People say service is really important... but actually I think anyone who hates their job and has been doing it for years won't really bother about giving you good service. To give good service, you must really love the job you're doing, have an utmost passion for it, and really concern about the feedback of the customers cause you want to improve. When you have a job like that *snap* the services you give are never gonna be a dunce.
So it all boils down on whether you like what you're doing.
I know half of us don't really know what we're gonna land up in life. And like everyone else, I try not to look in the future for a moment, and just focus on doing my best with where I'm at now. But I think ambitions and goals are important too. And if you don't have one at this point, maybe it's time to seek God and do some soulsearching to find one. Cause it'll come in handy when you're at the crossroads.
Alright, Star Wars Jedi Knights 2 Old Republic here I come!
Dawns On A Tinted Shore
"For a vertiginous moment Henry feels himself bound to the other man, as though on a seesaw with him, pinned to an axis that could tip them into each other's life."
Yes, I do really dig Ian McEwan's books.
Somehow I woke up with a clean slate of mind again, really. I wasn't really arguing back at my mum for nagging on the most inappropriate things. And I didn't rise up with that heavy dull feeling of wasting another obligated day. It's higher thoughts, and lesser thinking. That sounds super chim right? But it just means that when you reach to another extent of thinking, you don't really flip and flip the things in your mind again and again to find an answer, cause you already know it.
And so, don't let the problems of yesterday numb you of a brighter day ahead. It's all in the optimism.
Church is exciting, really. It overwhelms and underwhelms all the time.
Hehehe... :]
Transit Gloria
Whooo... a new skin design! Well what you see here took me about 5 hours. The design was supposedly Jesus standing in a midst of a crowd. But somehow that screwed up (haha, trust me with design), so I ended up with something minimalistic. Oh, and if u look very closely, you see vague people standing around. I used a picture from cell. So you might recongnise a few faces. :]
There was a bit of inspiration from the musical Jesus Christ Superstar. heh
Today is YES 2. I'm hoping my brother don't back out on me on the last minute. I mean, I've prayed like crazy this past week. I don't think it's much, but hope at least he gets the conviction. AND of course to all the people coming, that they will be a part of our family. I told yong jin at what - 2 am? - last night that the service sort of gave me a hype of excitement and fear. FEAR. Yes fear, of the Lord of course. :]
Well now, we'll just have to see how it goes. Don't we?