Not Everyone Wants A Coloured Wedding Gown
This past week has been quite a sudden hit of mishaps, overlapped with great friends, great times, and amazing companionship. So I'm really not complaining much.. my time has been spent going around doing things that look like I'm slacking, getting to know Dad more through this fasting month, and working and working my fingers out like mad on Willy Wonka Wits (I got my charger back!) in a confined space with the rest of the VSC people.
I must say it's so much easier to get closer to God when you've utterly surrendered all relationships and sins to Him. I used to find it so hard and I never knew the reason why the walk with Him was powered with excessive inertia. I find the requiem we accept at our conversion just the beginning of a new path that turns sharply away from the old one. The thing is there aren't any lights or coloured neon signboards on this one, no huge obvious signage telling you how everything's going to turn out at the end of your life. At the most there's one that lights the path - His Word. I found out that tiny shreds of disbelief, lack of faith, and unforgiveness can be like sprinkling water to that flame.
Hope you get what I mean. haha.
I think I'm speaking a riddles again.
Here's the two DI works I had to do this week.
And for deserts, we have Nerina Pallot's Everybody's Gone To War. Hahaha, I really like this video and Nerina Pallot I have no idea. heh..
The Sundial Sequence
Some things, only Daddy would understand.
I could try to explain it to myself or to someone close, but when it comes down to it; only God would smile and shake his head and know exactly what I'm gibberish I'm talking about. He would be the only one who ruffles my hair and say "You're more than what you think," instead of pretending to comprehend. He would know the times when it's hard to explain; when you remove the skin of the role you play in your life, find a quiet spot for yourself, take a deep breath, and laugh and cry and yell out for all the times you wanted to but had to be wary of the way everyone else looked at you.
To simply breathe, without a shadow of a doubt of who you are.
The emotions will erupt and sink, sparkle and then fade away into nonexistence, explode through an exasperating day, and then diminish into a single twinkle by the time we find ourselves asleep.
I'm so content, and I'm so amazed by Your peace.
Today when I was on that platform, all I saw was how amazing You have been through my life. How these past 2 years in ministry have sometimes been so rough I was on the edge of leaving, yet You pulled me through. For all the friendships made and lost in this ministry, it has been an amazing experience. And although I'm still loud and crazy and senseless at times, my heart has matured everyday as You embed in me things I never saw in Your light before.
And I gave it all back to You. :]