22/06/2004
Finally watched 'The Day After Tomorrow'. It's a really touching movie and everything about it was great. Everything. You just look at it and you can tell it's an awesome flick... Sam was really smart and courageous, and everyone just fits into the picture like a jigsaw puzzle. It's the best movie I've seen so far; I was amazed, shocked, saddened, touched, and angered all in one movie, and I know I can't get that experience anymore since the show's only nice within a cinema. Big sound and big screen for such an epidemic show like that.
Saw Josiah today at the Suntec arcade, he had like dyed brown hair cut in those metreosexual ways. He still looks a bit weird and completely a turn off. I bumped into him a couple of twice, think he still remembers me, even with my specs and hairstyle. I didn't approach him of course, he was too engrossed with a fighting game.. just that now, he looks totally different from Jeremiah, whose looking better and more matured. Josiah is...well... looking more... kiddish, ironically.
Come to think of it, I realised I wasted all of my Times voucher on self-improvement books, since no one's there to help me, I guess I'll rely on motivation and advice as much as possible. Suddenly realised that there were people like me; depressed and just trying to sort out their lives. It's a tough job, when nobody's listening here. You know, teenagers are really weird.. they shun from people who are being emotional but when their sad and everything, they make it so obvious so people would notice. I wish people were a bit more sensitive. Since my fall out with Shan Hui and Choon Kiat I've realised that all I've been doing to make people feel good has been screwed, and that I've been indirectly 'trodden' by people. I came upon this book at the bookstore titled 'I feel guilty when I say No'. I do, everytime I say the word 'No' I just start feeling bad, the book's supposed to harden people up, but I don't wanna be a bad guy in the end.
Every life has its obstacles, and right now, I'm numbed, I can't turn around and look at the sunny side anymore, and I've realised, it isn't all the time when you're sad people would care about you, no matter how much you helped people in the past.