Sine
I'm in love with herbal tea eggs (the eggs that are soaked overnight in a huge pot of herbal soup) and I've no idea why no one likes it. I just got hold of two from the coffeeshop downstairs (thank God I don't have to wait till a night market swirve in around here anymore), so I got the eggs and went down to the bookshop to photocopy Junyi's DnT folio notes.
It's been an exhausting week, skidding pass classes, doing alternative work and then trying to brainstorm ideas for deadlines. I think I'll get permanently head-damaged if school continues.. I've been deprived of leisure these days, but it's harder to maintain undeemed by mishaps (theoretically, of course) in school. Diet-wise, I don't know... guess those extra snacks do transfer to pounds in the end, I can't care less anymore about weight-losing, it's some highly cultivated act that I have no patience for; as long as I satisfy my appetite, I ain't at odds.
I'm annoyed with myself at the end of it all.. nah, not sad or depressed (I've gotten over that, remember?) but just some inability to straighten out my thoughts and they just bundle up into problems. I can't be myself at school anymore, it's the whole mental-pause syndrome, can't get over it.. I know I might seem conceited, irritating and loud.. but I guess there's much more about myself I don't even know. Well, at the very least I'm contended with life right now, even with the many many disadvantages it bundles along with it.
Ritesh is uncontrollably funny, he has these jerky actions all the time..I can tell his always edgy and you might think he's unpleasant but until you know him, he's quite an easy person. I imagine the Ritesh I knew a million years back had changed alot..from that boy who cried before entering pool water to a weird laughing kid, we're all winners..*ponders* (that's too Miss Universe)..we're still skeesey!
See? You can stay upbeat even when you aren't in the most favourable group of people in school, just accept the fact that you are who you are and what can others do? I'm not going to be brought down just yet..you can ignore or run away from yourself as much as you want, but if you can't turn back and see what your life had been..even you can't save yourself. I know alot of people out there just feel emotionally drained, it's time to regain that vitality and hit back on stuff you've never dreamt you could do, so I guess I'm reverting back to that folio deadline...
Right now, don't hate me because I've stopped talking about psychological stuff, I'm just too too drained out to even continue intruding into the fundamental blocks of humanity..no matter how complicated I make it sound.
Bleh, should I still eat dinner? :X