Last Time.
*clicks and plays Michelle Branch's Goodbye To You*
In a few hours time, I'd be on a plane, heading to the suburbs of Incehon, Korea. I've certainly blew the whole event up, I just have this feeling like I'm leaving for a very long time.
Maybe no one will remember me, but this year, it seems harder to leave everything behind and push forward to some unknown land. It's been a crazy, tiring year, but everything works out better than the last, and for once it feels good to think back on all the fun time in sec 3. I've neevr enjoyed myself as much, but it's time to calm down from all the excitement and frenzy and be a little more matured on what people think I never try to face. Hey, let's not talk about myself anymore... I know how much people hate reading blogs that went with 'I's all the way.
It's weird, to think you're about to enter the airport's departure gates, the several imprinted-faces-and-words writing 'farewell' banners in so many languages cascading above your head, and you turn back and really say a hefty 'farewell' (this time in English) to your homeland (you soil..hehe), leaving it for 10 days. I'm definitely not someone whose never left the country, been to places and seen many, many different traditions that cross and intervene each other, but this year it just somehow feels different.
Even though everything seems fine, I still have one more issue to settle. I thought maybe I'd write something about someone finally. I don't want to leave everything in a mess while I'm away.
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To You-Know-Who-You-Are,
Everyone now thinks I hate you (you know who you are) and I treat you like a blood-boiled-red enemy, but actually I've never told anyone; I've never minded and never took account of your actions. Of course sometimes in the past you get really weird, but it's comical, and I knew the stress you faced. It was okay, I mean who mines when someone gets weird because they have too many things on their minds?
How long has it been the incident? A few months? I've actually forgiven you about it, it didn't matter anyway. I know you're someone who most probably won't bend over your pride and apologise to me, so I guess it's better we leave it this way. I never, ever hated you. Maybe it's me being stupid and hoping you'd eventually take back what you did.. I know you knew I'm a totally different person off-school, and I know how it feels to be afraid, afraid of losing.. of apologizing to someone you never really cared for.
If you had directed your msn nick to me, I'm telling you this - I was waiting. I won't say I'm petty, and I never ever hated you to the core. Actually, both of us are people who tend to go over and over problems to find solutions am I not right? I was waiting for you to take the first step, but as I leave, I realise maybe you never will. Time is indeed running out, as the days pass I feel less and less hope for you to even pass the own barrier you've set yourself. Maybe it's been fate, but when you really leave for aus, I'd be there to see you off.
Well, I'm going.. the best of luck with your studies and everything else.
SY
P.S - All You Wanted was a really nice song!
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