8 Days To 'O's: Worrying
Well, 8 more days, I'm going to finish my jiang yis by today!!! Heh, that's because I lost a few other jiang yis so I'm actually completing less than usual... but no worries, I'll find the rest of the papers by tomorrow.. if I can't, then I won't bother looking, I'll memorise them a few days later.
Well, I think everyone wishes their life is more interesting. But we're just normal beings, not characters in a drama... sometimes everything doesn't happen, and when things do start happening, they come so fast we wished they'd stop. So what if life isn't really exciting? We know how cool it is just being ordinary, cause living ordinarily successfully is already much of an exciting and challenging part.
Let's just say I'm very very worried about my Mum, and I just realise how important my bro was to me, he's the jolly ass freak that makes life quirky and manipulative >:], love him loads.
Oh yeah, and something weird happened to me... was sorting out my thoughts in bed a few nights ago, and suddenly, out of nowhere, the words "Luke 23, 24" appeared in my mind. So I went to check what that verse was, and found out it was actually the Crucification and Resurrection of Christ. Well, I wonder what God wanted me to know, and I guess He wanted to remind me how He died for me to take away all my sins, and I should stop worrying that whether He will accept me or not and trust him if I really loved Him. Anyway, I won't forget this experience, at least I know He's around. Seriously, I didn't know Luke 23 was that important verse.... but well... chee, I'm crapping.
Luke 23 (King James Version)
Tomorrow I'm going to do my Chinese compo. Thank God it's a holiday tomorrow... hehh.. so I can concentrate on Chinese more! Waha, I think I'm going nuts about Chinese... later.
"I Feel So" - Box Car Racer
(I guess I could relate to this song now, the stress and all that... and wanting to be better but feeling that I can't. Box Car Racer rocks!! I think their better than Blink 182...anyway, whatever I'm feeling now is exactly in the lyrics beeelowww. I bet everyone can relate to the words...just not trying hard enough, but there's always starting over. ;] toodles.)
Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over