Is The Border Really Life and Death?
Damn worried about lao ma... she slammed her head on the ground a few days back... it's the second time this year. It's not exactly okay to fall backwards and land head-first when you're 100 yrs old. I think she's pretty lucky... but now it has really stunned her, she can't walk around that much anymore. Hope she gets well soon.
I'm already glad she's still around, and though I haven't really talked ot her one on one, but she's always been there as a barrier... you know? Like setting the limits of what you can do and what you can't, right and wrong. I guess everybody is more wary of God around her. Cause she's so holy and faithful to His love. She depends on Him for her existence. I really don't care if she's a Catholic, cause I believe there's no boundary, or categories to His love. You can stay a Catholic, an Anglican.. whatever, I think it all comes down to if you live for Him, or live for the rules you think comes with Him.
That's why i guess I wanted to do something about her for 'O' Levels. And I know she'd be happy when she leaves for Eternity.
When I read Purpose Driven Life today.. it says we are preparing ourselves for Eternity. Everything we do, is a test of character and a leap of faith. And I guess I'm not up for it. Everything we have - even ourselves - are God's loans to us. Somehow it bothers you, to do something up to standard? But He is the Lord. And everything is for Him.
When people cry over lost ones. It's because we love them so much, we don't want to see them leave. It's always sad when someone has to go, the way they leave everyone and everything behind, and move on to a better place. Maybe you can call that selfish, but that's all just human.
Just imagine, what would life be like if there isn't this person there anymore? When I ask myself that, somehow, I then really understand their importance to me.