Tuition!
I read a few blogs lately, and then I realised how un-dramatic I'm writing! Woah!
Basically I do not like to get into details of stuff, especially things that are very ... surface-level. Like a movie, house-warming, outing and stuff like that. But ---- of course, I will always blog about girl-encounters... just take Sonicfest for example. Being around guys 6 times a week is not very er... appealing.
Just that I feel like shit with most other male friends... think I'm too short, too fat, too ugly, or too something-or-another. It's having 80% of your pride eaten up, especially if you go out with those very superrr cool guys.. you'll definitely feel like shit. But girls! Around girls there's always this sense of "I gotta protect this girl!" kind of thing, and they don't mind how you look. Well, least the girls I've met are like that.
Hmm... why suddenly this talk about females? God knows why; I've asked Him a few times about how I feel towards............ her. She's leaving tuition earlier than the rest of us... that's what she told KPS. And that was on the very same day I talked to her!! Damn it! All this happened so darn fast.
Sigh...
I guess you gotta admit, there's times where you let things go even though you don't want to.
Few days back, I was an hour earlier for maths tuition. Cause I was napping at home, after some intensive studying... when I woke up, I checked the time on my phone and thought it was 5pm (I hate the 1500 kind of time format). So I rushed down there.. got up the bus and all.
There was a message from GM:
GM: Where are you?
SY: On the bus... aren't you going?
GM: For what?
SY: For tuition.
GM: Now's only four leh you go now for what?
SY: Oh! Lol, I mistook the time, nvm, I'll join in her sec 3 class.
GM: Help me buy Nasi Lemak.. you know that stall that one?
SY: Wah... can't you buy yourself?
GM: My father brigning me to tuition.. and he doesn't want me to buy the nasi lemak there.
SY: Why?
GM: Cause he says it's too oily and unhealthy
SY: Fine, I'll buy.
So I was studying SS on the bus. Yeah! Harrdcorree! And saw Ryan, bought the Nasi lemake, realise how frigging near he leaves from Smartlab la. That bugger, his maths like shit still don't wanna come into The Magical Realm Of Ms Kin Pei Shan. THE best math tutor ever. Hope he passes math la.
So I got in, and I sat down at the waiting area. Know VERY well Vickie was always the first to come for tuition. I was half expecting every person who came by the door to be her. Then she came.
She walked and paused at me for awhile, and headed down the hallway to KPS room. And then she walked back. Maybe she just wanted to see a familiar face (ME!!) or the table outside KPS room wasn't accesible (she sits there most of the time and do work). So there was this very very awkward silence among us for a good 15 minutes. She turned her head regularly, like as if wanted to ask me something.. and I very very much wanted to turn and smile and talk to her. But then I remembered she might realise I was that person who message her twice on deviantart... and wouldn't talk to me cause I acted like a stalker there.
Then this other girl from tuition came and she walked through the hallway.
Knowing it was damn awkward - besides, it was me, a guy, and her, a girl sitting alone silent - she walked after her and showed her some of her artworks.
I just tagged along, cause I guess I might feel more comfortable with a third party (the other girl from tuition) around. And I looked at her works.
That was then she flashed me the most cute, teasing, 'evil' facial expression ever seen from her. She withdrew the file she was showing to the other girl and hugged it on her chest.
SY: "What?" *she's staring at me, heartbeat escalates*
V: "Nothing, just that boys can't see this,"
I scratched the back of my head.
SY: "Okkkaay..." I sat down somewhere and looked from afar.
That pause at the waiting room was just... sweet and awkward. There's something about this girl that makes my heart jump a beat. I guess I will never be able to get hold of her, but I know, that facial expression she gave me, meant that she wasn't that cold and unsociable, and that's - my green light.