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Whew! What a week it has been!
I have been dabbling in photography again. I've stopped taking photos ever since the family's digital camera died (again) half a year back, so yeah, it feels pretty good to be treading on familiar ground. Ms Chua has so kindly lent me the school cameras for my own art projects. She's such a source of motivation! She rocks.
I went to worship ministry jamming for the first time today.
Actually worship ministry wasn't as nasty as I expected. It was funky cause everyone was friendly... haha. And I'm glad I got to do harmonizing and singing, after having a long absence from choral music. This is great! Back to doing what I dig doing - harmonizing. Chris was s'posed to be my leader, and he's hilarious. I see him up on stage performing all the time and I thought he's gotta be some stern, solemn fella, considering the fact he always seemed to wear formal attire. But hey! He wasn't! So that relaxed the mood.
And all the singers were pretty friendly! When I walked in the studio and said I was an understudy for vocals, they went "Yay!". I guess they must really need male singers desperately. Haha... But of course I was super duper quiet the whole night, cause that's what I always do when I'm a newbie. Partially because I feel like I need to impress the crowd, so I try not to reveal too much of myself in case they hate who I am. And partially cause I get to stand back and listen, and observe how the community works and bonds, and how each individual's character like.
I always do that. In fact, I'm still doing it in cell. Just to play safe, cause we aren't the best of friends yet, and it'll take a very long time to try break barriers of individual groups that are already within the cell. So you can imagine the distraught it brings to everyone, especially the heads like Ho Wai. How can we make everyone bond? Ho wai's flooded with that question.. he told me some of us really seemed have nothing in common. Basically because different people in cell lead totally different lifestyles, so there's no common interest, no common school work, no common backgrounds, no common everything. How? Is being in the same cell the only thing that relates us all together? If so, we had to start from the very basics. Break down already built up barriers, break down the gender walls, start friendships, sit together in church, become friends, have outings, bond and socialise, turn into good friends, share troubles with each other, turn into best friends, hang out even when there's no cell, turn into true brothers and sisters of Christ.
That will definitely take years.
Well I'm up for it. We must have faith all us peeps in cell! So that one day, all these superficial roadblocks would diminish by God, and we can stand as one. *sings out of pitch* One People, One Nation, One Singapore!
Ok, back to about jamming practice today.
This group of people from the worship ministry were more open about new people joining in, so I felt quite home. Awesome! That would make me more of myself the next time round.. haha. Being there made me feel like picking up the guitar again. Cause I saw string instruments everywhere, it starts to influence you abit. After all the traumatic experiences with learning guitar the other time... I'm surprised I'm willing to get myself traumatised once more. Haha....
Hmm...Let's see how many names I remember.... (don't mind me if I spell them all wrongly) Chris, Tabitha, Jacelyn, Lisa, Jolin/Jolene/however you spell it, Pastor Jen, Guan Wen, Jerrold/Gerald/however you spell it, Oliver, Justin, Cheryl (of course la lol), and plus plus plus those other names I forgot. Lol...
And there were so many instruments in the jam studio. They all looked way cool, like here was this guy who had a sleek, all-brown, six-stringed bass. It looked like it was layered with suede from afar. WOW. Ben Ngeow would go esctatic if he saw what I saw.. haha.
SO MANY COOL INSTRUMENTS.
And I can't play a single one. Haiz. lol
Hopefully this is what God wants me to serve in....all this is for Him. Right? My parents would understand what I'm doing. Someday. And worship for Christ! It's a feeling bigger than words to describe.
I'm glad I got myself into this. Haha.
ps: Tabitha is a waayyyy exotic name! haha....