Last Leg? Last Lap? Last Thigh?
I've been up a few late nights. Such as now.
This is the day the results of our JAE get published on the net. Nervous? Well of course I am. At 8 AM on this very day, the fate of how I'm going to be spending the next 3 years, is sealed.
And I'm hoping to get into TP, to do visual communications. Like what I've planned for a long time back. But the downside is - last year's intake score for visual com at TP, was 13 for L1R4. And I had 13 for my L1R4 this year.
Hanging on the line there eh?
So if a whole bunch of smarties decides to drop the smart-people-go-to-JC idea and head for the course I want, then I wouldn't be able to make it in. Not that I can blame them or anything, our society revolves around intelligence. And if they had really chosen what they want - which in this case, is visual com), and got in successfully, and because of them.... I got dejected out, I'd still be more than happy for them. Because they made a wise decision.
Okay, if you don't already know what I'm saying about points, every poly course's point criteria fluctuates by it's popularity. So if nursing suddenly became a hot course to pick for 2005, it's point criteria would probably shoot from 23 to a 10. Anyway that's just an example. We all know nursing would never get to that point. Then those people who got 23 points would never be able to make it into nursing.
So, where my own bleak prospects are concerned, I'm not exactly very confident.
Only time will tell. God would find a way for me. He always has. At this point, seeing myself stand infront of two forks on the road (and very soon, having to choose one), it's mind boggling. What if I don't make it? Then I would have to try to appeal into it. And what if that fails? Worse still, settle for second place, at republic poly. What if I cannot cope there?
These strings of worse-case-scenarios string and chain together in my mind. Effortlessly finding it's way into the vault of my insecurities.
Trust and rely Him! I'm leaving all these ambiguity into His hands. And depend on Him. Even if it doesn't turn out well, I'd still know He tried to help me. :]
Later peeps.