Look Up
Sometimes I wish things were easier. I hate it when thing become so superficial you feel like you're just trying to be someone your not to please people. It just feels wrong.
Gotta wipe that stupid fake smile off my face.
Last night during service, I felt a vibe. Like a God-powered nudge. It told me it's really time to stop being so laid back in church and worship ministry. Stop being so all-smiles-no-talk. Yeah, I know I am too all-smiles-no-talk. People tell me that they know I have something to say, but I always keep it to myself, making it look like I'm some unsociable moron.
Haha, I guess they're right.
But I guess it's the insecurity of things. You never know if something you say would come out right or not. It's so mind-blasting if you think into things too much. I feel like a souless person now. The assignments in school eats up your time to evaluate and absorb the spirit of it all. Then in the process of doing it, you don't actually understand what you are doing. You're just doing assignments to get marks, marks to make you pass a module, passing modules to pass your course, passing course to.... then what's next? You see, I don't even know. It's always so linkless that it feels stupid doing some things.
haha. Anyway I'm just ranting.
I like these past two week's services. God-driven men who really have a cause = people like Paul Andrew and David Pierce. =D It'd be cool if I turn out like that - God driven. I don't know if I would eventually become a pastor. I mean its the future right? Who knows what lies ahead. Maybe I would become a roadside sweeper around serangoon for all I know.
Well I EXCEPTIONALLY like Pastor David's speech. =D
You gotta hear this.
Don't push that pleasure button.
OH yeah! Please donate to my new Bible fund. A buck would make my day. =D