LIIIRRREEHHHZZZBIAN
Talking with Chris over dinner was quite an inspiration.
At least he made me see what I was doing wrong, and how I could change.
He's a great elder brother to all of us in the band. And I'm just glad I got to know such a dedicated teacher. Alongside people like Jenn of course. Haha, they are the juice of it all. You can have all the parts in place, but they're the people who'll start up the engine to make it run. The world needs to have more people like them. And that's why we're put under training to become such people. Whether we eventually be, who knows?
Yeah.. so things are pretty amazing at the moment. I remember telling Cheryl how I didn't know much about Chris even though he's supposed to be like my 'mentor'. But I guess it was just that we didn't had opportunities to talk. Now that we had, I'm glad he's the one in charge. And how God is working through him to us. :]
This period of time, is really a state of transition.
God knows how I feel.
People are changing the priorities in their relationships, I am trying to find that right time plan to firmly place down time for cell and church. And it's also time to finialize who I am. I told some people about it before. The struggle between the two polarities inside me - Crazy vs Quiet; the battle is coming to an end. I'll let God be the judge of who I really am.
It's so funny how I was nutty and retarded and ignorant and hurtful to people in the past. And then suddenly in sec 4, Mr understandable and quiet and mature and emo appeared inside me as an alter ego to all that I was. That guy is now taking control over the person I used to be. I'm just uncomfortable how it happened so quickly, and how change can throw you off your feet. There was a point of time when I was frightened of it. I didn't want it to happen. I thought I was becoming from an happy extrovert to an emo freak. And it freaked me out alot.
But now I know what God wants me to do - let it run its course. Let the transitions and changes happen. It's one thing to stay on this side of the trench and say, "Oh, I'm too frightened to jump, what if I fall?" and a total different thing to be over at the other side, smiling, and saying, "I've done it. I've made that leap of faith,"
Yeah, I guess it is a choice. A big one. But all in all, it's being with Him that matters right?
Wow, I sure miss blogging emo stuff. Ahahaha...
Anyway went with Faith to take photos in the morning. Today's route was Dhoby Ghaut > SMU > Little India > Bencoolen > Raffles City > Bugis > Little India > Arab Street. It was a nice walk and the photos turned out pretty good. Will post some up if my scanner ever gets to work... ahahaha.. I think Faith is a very commited girl. She's very dependable, and that's cool :]
Finally bought Hanif's Muse Cd. (You so owe me one =D)
So you steal it
Escape away with nothing
You try to feel it
But what you have is plastic
Your burned your pocket
And everything that's in it
On your search for something
That is real
Well if you need love
Take the time and be love
Breathe it out create love
See how things can turn
If you need love
Give yourself and be love
Breathe it out create love
See how things can turn
It's so empty
But your room is full of people
It's so quiet
But everyone's so loud
And if you need love
Take the time and be love
Breathe it out create love
See how things can turn
If you need love
Give yourself and be love
Breathe it out create love
See how things can turn
Inside your ruining the mood
You're singing solitude
Forgetting all you knew
So look, look into the mirror
Swallow all your fear
Believe it's really near
Plus One - Be Love
ahahahaha plus one rock socks... =]