Zouk Zouk Zouk Zouk!
As I grow older, I realise humans tend to start going out with each other more often, and this number of 'outings' gradually peak at around 20-ish. I don't know what creates this trend. Lonliness? Solitude? A wider circle of friends to accomodate? Or simply cause there's more stress in life, and the distractions must grow significantly too.
Everyone must go out; don't stay at home, don't become some house hermit and spend hours reading books or just meditating. That's anti-social - the world says. Everyone's trying to paint their life with frequent trips to the pub, clubs, go dancing, drink, ohh eat at a high-class restaurant, have a sleek BMW. This is what you must have to be in and hip and glamourous and cool.
I don't give a shit. Really.
I personally don't know anyone like that, but I hear my friends saying, "oh my other friend is so hip and happening and goes to all these cool pubs," "ohh xiaxue so has THE life! She's hanging out everywhere, etc," and the list goes on on how-to-become-mr/ms-perfect-socialite.
If barricading your inner self, and ignoring your own privacy, relinquishing times with God, family, and the good old friends (the ones who don't try to spew intelligent english in a pub to look charming, but are just funny being themselves), are the ways to be happy and successful, so be it. Go do that, and meet me at the other end of life to tell me if you've been content.
You see, the line between what's spontaneous and what's fake is so thin. It might feel like as if I'm being real and authentic to someone, and the next second I know that person says something I disagree, but I laugh along anyway cause I don't want conflict. I don't want to stand up for my ideas cause I don't want him/her to think I'm a hard nut. You know?
Yeah. This is really random rant. But I know someone gets my point.
I just want you to be happy with yourself.
You're really an awesome kid.