Hey Henry
Yay I lost my voice after worship min. Again.
I was thinking whether would I zao xia on the first day I step up on stage during youth service. Like make a major screwup, sing the wrong lyrics, or do a bad rendition of the tenor part, or 1001 other mistakes. But then again - Who knows when I'm going on stage right!? The big question mark. Haha, I shouldn't even be worried cause I don't even know when I'm gonna sing on stage...
Actually, I've always had really bad stage frights... as in, I remember when we performed for school events, I'll always take like hours psyching myself up. And everyone else would just casually pick up their instruments, and I'm expected to just follow suit and pick up my mic like it's a nonchalent-rockstar-thing. Somehow my band members were never bothered with the tension. Maybe playing an instrument kind of makes it your guard. I dunno... Like you can always hide behind your instrument and play, concentrate on playing, don't look at the crowd, and it'll be alright. Maybe it's like that. But I still honestly respect people who play instruments, it's a talent you know. Even if they aren't talented enough to make it big, they spend like hours and hours practicing, and that's already a commitment worth praising over. I can't play anything to save my life, except maybe the recorder. So I look up to good instrumentalists.
It's a whole different life with a mic. You have to look at the crowd, psyche them up, make strained faces when you hit a high note, and still look like you aren't making a fool of yourself. That's why I respect the vox people alot. like ALOT. Cause they are the ones without the guard, the upfront ones to first get all the snide remarks, see the expressions on all those faces, accept whatever the audience trashes at you, etc.
So I know I'll probably sweat buckets on my first up-stage - I can feel it. I can't be so straight-faced as Kenny.
Well, everything is in Him. Even if I really screw up really badly and stuff, at least I've tried and done my best for the Lord. And I seriously think - that's all I want. And that's all that matters.