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I see our fate, I see our past
And all the things that could not last
It's heavy on these eyes, frozen as I hold this photograph
It's all we're left that's of any worth
And it's so much more than a thousand words
Now in this frame is our only way we can endure
I pictured you and me always
And in this photograph we're safe
I love God so much.
I know, it's random, and sudden and everything... but I love Him so, so much. I just sometimes sit there by myself and wonder, how can few litres of red liquid, some squishy matter, make up a human being? How did we even get our souls, our intuition, our reflexes, our emotions? How can we - of the 100000000000000000 ways we could have not survived on this planet - eat and remain alive? There are so many inanimate things around, but we can move. There are so many animals around us, but we can think. There are so many ways we could've killed ourselves, but we lived.
You just cannot be an atheist. When you think about it. So many ways we could've been wrong, but we turned out perfectly homo-homosapienic alright.
And even when I sin over and over again. I pray to him, and he takes away everything. Every single crap I feel about myself, He takes them all away. He forgives me again and again and again, and I'm so ashamed sometimes and He just smiles and says, "Don't be,". He tells me things when I ask Him what to do. He doesn't even have to speak you know! His replies are just *snap* no words needed. And He makes me want to be a better person, not just be a better person to earn a place in Heaven.. you know? Like out of real love, you wanna do it.
He made me feel so alive. And last week, those few minutes when I fused with Him - it's amazing. It's mind blowing. It's spectacular. It's...it's forever in my memory.
I just, cannot get over God. I want to just continue saying how much He's made me become. I know some people might think we all are some church maniacs and we're like CHC-ish peeps. It isn't like that. It's connection with the Big One above. That's just all. And when that connection is there, these thing won't matter. How people see you won't matter. And it's sure giving up a hell lot of stuff to be close to Him. But at the end of the day, it's worth it.