Give It All Away.
Something's happening to me that I cannot explain. I cannot understand why.
So tell me what's wrong with me. What on earth am I going through that I can't explain myself. Am I not meant for this? But why does it seem like this isn't my life lead? For some reason I feel like I'm just a random soul who filled in the shoes of this person typing now.
Lonliness I've never felt.
Pain I've never realised.
Hurt I've never been in.
I can't say how much I've been brought down by life. And now this time, I cannot get up anymore.
I'm so afraid if I open up once again, I would feel rejection. Upon the upteenth time. And I cannot face that once more. I'm not strong enough for that. I'm no longer strong and happy and jumpy enough. I'm on the brink of giving up.
Maybe this is what Clarence says, "Don't trust anyone fully, or else you'll get yourself hurt for no reason,"
Father help me please.