Gratitude
A good long Thank You post for this emo emo place. :] It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart; for whether I am in chains or defending and confirming the gospel, all of you share in God's grace with me. God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus. And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God. Philippians 1:3 - 10 I have a long night tonight, and one of the worse days of the month tomorrow. So goodnight, take care. Blankets and socks for the cold, chilly nights these days. :]
Thank God for this week.
You have done alot of crazy things in my life Dad. Tons and tons of things. So much so, to suddenly have a sudden change of acceleration, from the laid-back life I had to the fast and furious. And I thank You for all of it.
Yesterday's service was good. It touched many hearts, and I felt it ministered to the youngers ones. I'm glad it did, so glad to see them growing, so happy to see each of them turn from 16 to 17. And as unconvincing as it sounds, it pains me so much to see some of them having to go through things and situations that even I might not have faced. I wish it wouldn't have happened to them, I really do. It's always tough to grow up faster than your friends. I know I can't help some of them much but to listen, watching their hearts turn so weary and worn from everything that happens in their lives.
But I know You allowed this to happen to make them grow, and I know their hearts are getting moulded by Your hands with each passing trial you put up to them. Thank you for them. Thank you for every single person, Esther, YJ, JT, even Pauline, Liane, Cheryl, Joab, Jerome, Ben, Xue Ling, Joan, etc. So I pray that You will keep Your hands over their lives. And that they will find solace in us, in cell, and most importantly with You.
I really don't mind the work that's over my shoulders right now. It might be one of the tougher weeks in school, but it's okay cause Ho Wai understands at least. Sometimes when I feel like cell has shifted to a lightly more JC outlook, and that nobody understands or can support what I'm doing, he was there to reassure me and yea. Thank You for leaders like him, because he's always honest and straight to the point and always trying his best.
This week has been all about Disciple Vs Believer. The things we go through, the furnace flames we endure, to come out better people and better servants. And yes, it's not been easy, but with faith we have made it through so far, and I know I will keep trying to pull through the things You place in the future.
I pray that when I fall, You will give me support, and ask the same support out of me for others. Thank you Father for Victor, for him always sharing great words from You. He is the one person I listen to every single time, and he motivates me more than he knows. :]
I lay my Mum in Your hands. I know she doesn't want to bother or delve deeper into things she's commited to. And that's why we are like what we are now, so far and distant. Because of our different beliefs. Over the years, the unrevolved hurts and disappointments between each of us has led to this. And I told her, that I had already given up trying so many times, but I've not. And even if whatever I say will fall on deaf ears years and years on, I will try and try to bring her to grow deeper with You.
I thank You for her, for the family, for my brother. Even during the times they judge me, and sometimes dissociate me. That You protect them all, look after their lives, and let me learn how to have peace when I talk to them.
Thank you Dad for VSC, for Temasek Poly, for even the short time I that I was in polo. Thank you for putting fantastic poly friends, and making it a whole lot easier with other schoolmates of the same faith. Even though we really aren't close at all, thanks for making them who they are. How we count on one another in schoolwork, in projects, in our groups, during lunch etc. I thank you for the great people I've met in there. Faith, Dilys, JT, Shawn Paul, Angelina, kelle, adeline, weird nart, the crazy clarence, the blur clara, the powerhouse pepper, the warm-hearted shannon, the funny jayne, FOR JOEL the weirdo who always laughs at his own jokes ahahaha and the much much mores that I've not mentioned.
Thank YOU for the secondary school friends that I none of us will EVER forget. The Dudes Of SAS that we will grow senile together (ahahaha).. For Hanif, for always being such a weirdo friend and for always pinpointing out parts of my life that need attention. For gar meng for just being a tuls partner, for Marco, for sh, for Dan, Hooper, Jeremy, Aaron and the many many more. Please look after them Lord, that your hand will be over their lives, that the ones that have not known you will have stirring in their hearts, and for the ones that do to grow deeper in You. Haha Dad you're awesome..
Last but not least, the worship people. The ones that I never thought would know well but eventually did. Thanks for the Yakultos (or something, I just saw that name off somewhere so haha spare me), the understudies, Jesselene, Lisa, Zbrothers, Marcus and everyone else. Including the leaders. I pray that you look after their lives, their hopes and dreams You know better than I do, and Father I pray that you will make us all vessels for one another, and to everyone else too. Thanks even for Chris, for his persistent love that I cannot understand, for trying, for his smses cause these nights have been really rough, and they always give me motivation.
And to everyone of you that I might have mentioned but have brushed lightly on your name but you know very well you mean more than just normal buddies and friends to me (okay. I think we should all pause to get that sentence..hahaha), I will always try to be there for you. And I will always treasure everyone one of you, and I really thank God for putting you in my life. Yea.
AND THANK GOD FOR YOUR VERY SELF. Haha, thank YOU for being a great Dad and walking me through so many obstacles, always being there by my side. Listening to my prayers, and as I try to medidate on Your word. Thank YOU for just allowing me to know You because there is nothing else in the world that I would rather have than You. And Yes Dad You Are The Coolest Father ever... whooooooooOOOoooOOoo
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I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.