Tout Doucement
I never wanted this to end up like what it is now.
And I must say, that this is also partially my fault. My own expectations and the way I thought it will work out, how it will be make Me feel good. I'm sorry, for the times I was being selfish, and never putting God in the middle of it. Never thinking about you.
When you begged me yesterday, and you asked me to let you hang on on just a little bit of me, a little part of my shirt. I just can't pretend it doesn't pain me looking at your determination, and desperation. I wanted nothing to do with you, and yet you never gave up on it. It pains me to see you having to do everything, that I will be on the receiving side.
I won't think of the agendas anymore. I won't lay any expectations on you. We will start out all over again as acquaintances. Nothing more, nothing less. You have my word that I will try on my part.
I will keep my side of the agreement.