The Unpredictable Things Of Life
I guess this is what makes us different yea?
How all you think about is keeping us safe, keeping the ones around you close.
I know, it's a good thing to feel like this. But sometimes, you have to let people go. It's this other part about love that you don't understand. And that is sometimes to love, is to do things that might hurt. Because there's such a thin line that substantiates love and obsession.
I don't know why you disapproved of that man in that charity show, spilling his guts out trying to do a stunt to raise money for his needy patients. Maybe it's not the best way, for it cheapens our society to think we have to resort to entertainment to extract donations for the needy. But why do you disapprove him and calling him stupid to do this for the ones he love?
I finally saw our difference today.
It's because of your inability of seeing this bigger picture in love, that frustrates me sometimes. It's cause you can't see how that as I grow up, I need to make my own choices, make my own decisions, go out into the world and make my own mistakes, fail my own failures, so that from there I will learn and grow as a person. I know you want to protect me, but as I step from maturity to adolescence to adulthood, you have to let me go in some ways.
I know it's because of your concern that you say all those harsh things.
I know it's because you saw my down-ridden face, heard me crying these few months, that made you say why am doing all these when it's so hard.
But I'm not crying because it's hard. I'm not sad because I'm afraid of what life has thrown to me. My tears are tears of pain and joy, for God's moulding, for His strengthening everyday. Because he's plucking out the weeds in my heart. He's going deep into the depths of the past and pulling things that are not of Him out, one by one by one. The pain is excruciating, but it's is the choice I choose to take. I choose to let Him heal. I choose Him above everything. It's the choice I will take now, then, and evermore.
But I don't blame you anymore, I don't have any single hate or anger or resentment for the things you've done and did not do all these years.
All I have in my heart is restoration, and a new start on things. :]
Because Dad had taught me so many things throughout these months that I wish to show you and let you know about. To spill the overflowing joy I have for Him to you, to make things right again.
So here we go.
Strength in Him.