Wollobo Day 8: A Change In Pace
I'm caught here in the McDonald's opposite my block. Listening to a crowded cell talk and laugh and mingle somewhere near me as I try to prepare for a book review and author's biography and writng style. I know their a cell cause I've seen them come down from the attic of a coffeehouse they call their church, although I can't remember what their church's called. It's great to see the commitment they have, for a church is acknowledged as a church not by the physicality of four walls, but by a group of like-minded people, coming together in the name of the Lord.
These nights, I've been really thinking about the future. How some things are all relative to the times ahead, and right now, there are alot of unresolved things that only God's time and will will reveal.
I've been trying to plan my time, even now as my workload isnt as hectic as it was. It definitely means more free time to ponder, to reflect, to revert back to a pensive state of mind. I'm taking things in slowly and considering all actions and consequences.
Some things, I really don't want to lay my hands on. You know?
I cannot change a person's state of mind, if he's always reflecting an aura of sadness for what has happened.
I cannot imagine things were like what it was before, when transparency was never an issue.
Maybe I was a little too intrusive into the things that has happened. And on reflecting, it wasn't a good thing. So yea, I really am taking a breather and giving everyone their own privacy and their own space. It affects me of course. I cannot not feel the things that happen around me.. yea, it does affect.
But I truly, truly, believe that even as some of my friends and myself take this step of getting to know Him more, we will find answers and revelations that will help us grow. And I'm praying for understanding and wisdom and dependence on Him.. honestly and genuinely.
Job 4: 17 - 19
Can a mortal be more righteous than God?
Can a man be more pure than his Maker?
If God places no trust in his servants,
if he charges his angels with error,
how much more those who live in houses of clay,
whose foundations are in the dust,
who are crushed more readily than a moth!
Trusting in His guidance, so that these foundation of clay that I used to have, will slowly replace itself into a house of firm steel and rock.
I'm taking a break. A long deserving one. A break I have from myself and the ones around. Less of catching up, and more of following Him. Reading His word, praying to Him, listening to His voice. I've been so caught in this whirlwind of events - sometimes intentionally, sometimes not - that I think it's time to drop them all, and begin creating artworks and pieces that will dictate a change of pace I'm having with life.
I really thank God for the guidance I get from people older than me.
And I guess it's obvious enough; Wollobo Days, is also the depiction of a spiritual journey, that has already begun. :]