Ahleeah
I saw stars sparkling.
Sitting alone by the playground at 1.30 am. Looking above into the skies, and seeing the dotted lights dancing and shimmering. They aren't satellites, they aren't specks of glowing man-made machines; they were God's handmade stars.
It's been a tough long week. And it's going to continue into the the weekend to come.
Helmut forces his way out during the late nights in the dark room, and I would relinquish my composure to become this super whacky and loud guy. And I think everyone's more or less irritated by my continuous singing and shaking and dancing.. hahahaha... but yet we tend to forgive each other. I know once Darkroom is over, I'll miss it tons. And everyone in it who stays up late into the night every night, before getting chased out by Mr Silar our friendly security guard. We will all miss it tons.
Tonight we stayed over and Clarence was scaring me with all those fake facts about photo processing (It'll turn yellow under the lightbox, the negatives got scratch etc.). Carmen took alot of nudity of her sister, which made me cover my eyes alot when she displayed it for Chee Yong. Some girls brought in their boyfriends yesterday, and they mugged around their girlfriends until they left; not uttering a word to Kevin or me. Shona has amazingly beautiful prints cause her theme is so amazingly beautiful and photography-y.
I'm spending at least 300 bucks on this module. And I tell myself everyday that it's worth it.
It's worth all the early mornings and the late nights. the massive amount of prints that go to waste, the amount of cab fare here and there, the missing out in the family. I pray to Him everyday for His strength and for His assurance that it's worth it.
All the best for the people during worship. We might've tons of things in our hearts, but it's God in the center that counts. And I'm praying for everyone to have more faith :] Faith faith faith! It's time for me to be a better son to God, and not let schoolwork bombard my time with Him. Honestly I've not been very close to Dad cause of the times I'm in school. But I will always continue to stand firm and strong in His word and His will. No matter how people judge me or look at me.
I might no longer take initiative and I don't have time or energy to care anymore where this is going to go, but I'm still praying for you.